bad 'dream'.

i had a terrible dream
this morning...*sigh*
i noe it's crazy as in
it's unbelievable for u
ppl to believe.
I had a dream tt,
i was in a place, more
of a country, and
there were ppl shouting.
I din reli hear them shouting.
I saw fright and fear
in their faces,
each n every one of them.
One moment, i saw a huge
wave, brown colour,
it was damn high,
higher than the coconut trees.
Lucky i happened to be
beside a coconut tree.
The impact of the wave
was so strong tt my whole
body moved,
i could feel it, really.
Water was splashing at me,
gushing at me,
i grabbed the trunk reli
tight, din dare to let go.
I realised tt it was a
TSUNAMI..
i mean, how can i dream
of such things?
then when the situation calmed,
a bus came and everyone
rushed to get onboard, i did.
I arrived at one place,
like a bridge connecting
one island to another.
The bridge was built
very high, like the summit
of mount fuji.
Below, were high-rise
buildings.
I was shocked, really shocked..
The whole area was submerged
with water and big waves just
continue coming in..
And the depth was abt 30storeys?
for a moment, i thought i was
in singapore..
and i thought of my mum, my brother,
my family...
i became afraid.
I called my house bt nobody answered.
Something just din satisfy
my curiosity.
I woke up all of a sudden.
I din noe what happened next.
But it was horrific.
Could this be true?
Will it happen?
*sigh*..
it reli scared me..
i've never been scared
like that before...

Malay O' level>>>OVER!!!

YAY!!!
I've just finished my
malay O level paper.
Paper1, i can say
that it's acceptable.
Not so hard, but it
doesn't mean it's easy.
But i was happy aft
the first paper cuz
i think i did well.
We were given 10mins
break.
I din follow my frens to
the toilet.
U noe the platform where
prefects pull up the flags
outside the hall??
I sat there and reflect
on what i've done.
I studied my peribahasa
and minutes later,
paper 2 started.
I was freaking worried
and nervous too.
I already got it wrong
for the first q. SUCKS!!!
Actually i put the correct ans,
bt i changed it.
So stupid of me..
I can just pray to God
tt i'll get great grades
for malay.
Well, tt's it..ciao.

byd's over..

YES!! byd's passed..
i'll concentrate on
the major war right now..
this coming monday is
my malay O level paper..
Almost every one of my
teachers want us to get
A1 for it..
cuz once it's over and we
get A1,
we have 1 subject less
to concentrate on
for october's papers.
June holidays are coming..
and nope,
no holidays for us...
my schedule is tight, man.
With lessons in the first
2 weeks.
Lucky my teacher understands
us and arranged tt
we go to kelong on the last
wk of the month.
Kelong is sort of a house on
water..not reli on water..
there's a support underneath.
We'll be staying there for
a few days..
having seafood as our meal..
YAY!!! prawns, lobster,
and not to forget..
SOTONG!!!! HAHA...
WATCH OUT SOTONG,
I'M GONNA EAT U SOON!!!

..

nothing better to do also...HAHA!!!


Just a little smth
from me..
I'm in a band,
now called,
"BOYCOTTED"



We were once called
ROCK-EX.. But we've
changed the name for now.
Before we permanently
set the name of our band,
we asked alot of ppl
about it..
Some even asked if
boycotted is an
american band..
We laughed so hard abt it..
Majority praised abt the name.
So BOYCOTTED it is..
It is our dream to perform,
we are musicians..enthusiasts..
We are hoping to perform
during BE-YOURSELF-DAY.
I hope our wish will be granted.
Mdm Hasnah's on it..
We even promised tt
we would concentrate
on our O's aft that..
no more games, no more
crap..just study and revise.

Well, i gtg now..
cya.bye.

...

nothin' better to do...
I decided to post pictures
taken with my dad's hp..
of cuz i din take the pic..
it was my sis who took it.





taken by me with my hp.
Cool huh?? It's like
dragonball..(Goku)haha..>

BIO UPDATED

BIO UPDATED!!!

greatest time..

Today i went to lot1
cinema to watch a movie
called, 'Over The Hedge'
with my dearest wajihah..
Arrived at lot1,
went straight to the last floor
and bought ourselves
2 tickets for the movie.
I can say that the movie was
kinda cool..the gadgets were
awesome. But it ain't that funny.
*haha*..
She was freezing though
she wore a sweater..haha..
What kind of a sweater is that?
A sweater that doesn't keep
people warm?? Haha..
That's not a sweater...haha..
Although the movie emphasized
more on the cheerful parts,
there were still emotional parts..
Some were so sad..i became sad too.
Honestly speaking, the music made
me sad..
Technology has advanced and
the characters were as though
they're for real..splendid!!!
Overall, i would rank the show,
7/10..
After the show, went to a
souveneir shop, i guess..
i dunno the name of the shop la..
I asked for her help...to choose
the teddy bear she likes..
She CHOSE!!! I thought it'd
be a hard time for me to force her
but she was easy at that time..
Don't select those non-cuddle
one la..it's useless if u choose those..
i told her that..haha..
I'm not very rich..that's my savings
But i dun mind, i can always save again.
She gave a sweet smile after choosing
the perfect teddy bear..haha..
she's so cute...!!!
awwwwWWw...haha
the teddy bear is a token
of appreciation from me for
keeping me company since the
day i met her..for showering me
with warmth i've nvr felt..
Thanks alot!!
I'm reli grateful to God for
meeting me with her..
I reli had a great time
with her all these while.
I pray that we will still be
together no matter what,
esp in the future..
I love u always...=)

18 May 2006...

today during CD period,
we had to do a survey
regarding NE..
there were 60qns and i was
damn lazy to shade..
I kinda scan thru and shaded..
Since we still had a lot of time,
my form teacher, Mr Singh
decided to talk to the whole class..
regarding our stands in our studies..
He gave a couple of advices.
He said, forget abt all this love stuff
which i find quite makes sense.
Suddenly, i was struck with guilt.
I just dunno why..it was as though
he was talking abt me..
He also said, treat those who
don't wana study like ur worst
enemy..
Not reli ur enemy where u have
to beat ur enemy up..
His trademark was, "See you in December.."
and "I'll only talk to u in December.."
Say those quotes to those who
don't wana study..
Why? Cuz O level has finished by then...
The more he lectured, the more
desperate i become to get 7A1s..
It's my life, my future...it's
everything to me.
My life would be meaningless if
i nvr meet my target.
*Mr Singh, although the rest hate
u, I'm proud to have u as my teacher..
You always want the best for us.
You want us to lead a happy life, I know..
I'll do my best.. =)"

i'm confident i can do it..

Yes!!!
I'm just too happy
to see improvements
in my results..
subjects tt i used to get
bad results such as
maths, physics, etc..
I'm sure by august,
my maths would be
better, i must get at
least an A2 for maths.
For physics, hmm...
A1?? I kinda like
physics now..
probably cuz i read
'angels and demons'
and 'digital fortress'..
These 2 bks were written
by Dan Brown..
Physics theory are included
in his books, that's why i like
it. The more i read, the greater
my interest for physics..
I'm on my quest to finding
my dream..
Dream..o..dream, where are u?
Oh, it's not here..
Maybe i'll find it, perhaps
few yrs later..or
the moment i receive my
O' level results..
this is smth im impatient of.
MOCK is over...the purpose of
MOCK is to let us feel the
environment when sitting
for O' level papers..
Some papers like maths, woah..
u have to sit down, studded to
ur chair for 2 long hrs..
my neck was so painful...
but i just carried on.
Anyway, i got used to it already.
Klah, gotta go..meeting my fren
to play soccer at my other fren's
house.. Wish me all the best for
O' levels.. =)

the exam n love menace...

a few wks to O levels'
but before i reach that level,
i have to undergo a couple
of obstacles..
i mean exams like MOCK
and PRELIM.
If i can't pass these exams,
hell i wun be doing well for
O levels..
PSLE has long passed,
comes another major one.
*sigh...*
what disturbs me most,
1)* thinking of her
2)* studies
These 2 things..i've been
having a hard time with.
though i'm nt in a relationship
with her, my love is like no1
can ever imagine..she's
permanently riveted in my mind
and my heart too..
I tried once..not to sms her..
but in the end, i suffered...alot.
I'm on the verge of getting stucked.
If i focus on her, wad abt my studies?
my future?
If i decided to leave her, and
focus on my studies...
will she be alone?
wait a min, not reli rite?
She still has her frens..
they're gd frens, who nvr fail
to cheer her to insanity..
Wad am i in her life?
Just a cornered guy, perhaps??
What will be the results if i tell
her that it's over between us??
that i'm chasing for my dream,
not for a girl..
What will be the results if i
tell her that we shud stop
smsing each other..
She still has her exams
and has 2 more yrs before
ending her secondary life..
i shud be discouraging her
to be engaged in all this
love stuff..
i shud be doing what her
parents have always wanted
for her..to study very hard.
God, plz enlighten me..
Show me the right path..
well..it's time for me to go.
Bye..*sigh*

level 1..accomplished

hmm...common tests,
it's over..
it's left with MT mock
exam..which is next friday.
Wish me luck..
I just need to buck-up my
chemistry..esp balancing eqns.
i feel that to know how to
balance equations,
is the heart of it.
Once u noe it well,
everything would be simple
for u to get As..
I'm just so happy that
i dun have any burden
anymore..i mean,
tests..
Anyway, i reli had a moody day
today.. i headed for pending
lrt station early..but then,
there was some major problem
with the bloody train.
I waited for almost 15mins..
By then, the platform was full
of commuters..
and the train was crowded..
i can hardly do my morning
exercise, man..
As i read my watch, (actually
i din have my watch at that time)
it was 0715h.
I rushed to school..hoping
that she's hopelessly waiting
for me under the hut.
It's totally my fault.
I should have followed my instincts.
to wajihah,
IM TERRIBLY SORRY!!!
I RELI MADE A FOOL OF U..
PLEASE FORGIVE ME..

damn pissed off, man..

*sigh*...
she's been going thru
pain all these while..
she's still a prey
to many students in sch.
But WHY?
Im sure she wun do such
things to hurt her
predators' feelings..
I noe her well and she's
not that kind of person..
What is it that those
bastards or bitches
want frm her??
Actually, i pity her..
She is already having
a hard time coping
with her personal
problems at home.
and now, she has to
cope with things in
school, how stupid..
Haiz...some ppl
just dunno when to
stop their nonsense.
Whatever it is, i'll
always support u
in fighting this "war".
approach me for
any help, im willing...

-to dearest wajihah..

inconsistent subject grades..

im darn happy to
find out that my math
grade improved drastically.
from C6 to B4 to A2..
was it just LUCK???
or my all-time hard effort??
anyway, what matters is
i improved.. =)
here comes the worse part..
MY CHEMISTRY GRADES..
they FLOPPED..
arrgghh!!!!
i failed for the recent test..
29 out of 60..
i was so devastated, man.
all those equations,
elements, etc..
is driving me into insanity..
i dun care, i must
get it over with..
i must revise this subj
all over again, from level 1..
malay GCE O' level is around
the corner..
29May i guess.
mdm hasnah has been giving
us wkshts. So far i did
reasonably well but i need to
improve on it too..
What made my grades good,
is that IM HAPPY.
I dunno why, but i guess
it's the reason.
She makes me happy,
but sometimes sad too..
and not to mention,
angry and upset as well.
haha..but those are
actually happiness behind
each and every one of them,
and im so happy to have met her.
i feel blessed, i must say..
I LOVE U SOOOO MUCH.

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sigh...
questions seem to
flow freely in my
mind like air.
Questions that are
the reason i cant
pay full attention
to my studies.
Why, man? Why?
There are just too
many of them in
my 512MB head.
I dun believe in
monkey love, or
whatever they call it.
I take matters like this
seriously..
i dun treat ladies like
bunch of handphones.
No, i dun.
I dun dump as soon as
i got a new one.
No, i dun.
I made a very big
mistake once..
a promise that i've
treated it as nothing.
I din fulfil the promise.
now, i feel guilty..
i just dunno why.
and not to mention,
I MADE THAT PROMISE..
and i din go by it???
*sigh...*
I suffered from depression
when she said that
sentence to me..
i was filled with guilt.
Now, someone has re-opened
up my heart..
but what's weird is,
the same thing happened.
It was love at first sight.
I confessed evrything to
her.. but it really took
me long to actually have
the guts to do so..
However, i din go into
a relationship for
im not ready for one.
But, im actually treating
her as if we're couple..
isn't that similar to going
into a relationship???
What's my decision, anyway?
Me, myself and I don't noe.
Whatever it is, i dun
wish to hurt another heart,
never...

moodless jam'..

i went jamming today
at alvron which is at
bukit timah..
i din wanna go but
my fren insisted on
paying for me so
i went.
I set off at 4+ to meet
my fren..
He said that a few
girls frm his class,
jingyi, yewting and alicia,
wanted to come along
So we waited for them
for a while..
When we reached there,
we played only a few
songs.
We din have full force
cuz we're missing one
player..(farid)
Most of the songs were
not played very well..=(
Our drummer(angelo)
came late cuz he had
church stuff..
He came a few mins
before the jammin ended.
We planned to book
again but we had no choice
but to book at 8pm..
We ate at al-ameen while
waiting for time.
It's already 8pm so
we payed the bill and
went in.
The girls took our pics.
We thought of having
them as our groupees..
hehe...
We had fun and sad at
the same time too..
cuz we din manage to
make the girls enjoy..
we reli suck today...
an apology to the girl
was made by me.
haiz...the rest intended
to jam again tmr..(sat)
but ali cant come cuz he
has to help with his
relative's marriage..
angelo said he'll try
cuz he's afraid that
his parents may not
allow him, he has been
going out since, which we
are not aware.
Me? Hmm..
im nt so sure too..
im down with flu
which has been annoying
me. I couldn't play
well cuz of my flu..
about tmr, im afraid
i have to see my mood..
i can't afford to go out
2 days in a row..and
for u info,
i came hm at 10pm
today..and that's late.
my parents would surely
be angry with me, man..
anyway, gotta go now..
i really miss her like crazy.
Din get to chat with her
that much.. *sigh*.

The best and worst night class...

i went for night class today..
but i went home first
before going for night class.
I reached school at 6pm.
It was creepy,
so quiet..there was hardly
any noise..
I sat down to do my
maths revision..
few mins later, my frens arrived.
we studied for 2hrs,
listening to mp3.
drinking hot milo..
the milo was yummy..
it drove my fren to addiction..
haha..
2030h, we packed our things
to go home..
we walked home just for fun.
When we reached zhenghua sec,
decided to run..
surprisingly, i wasn't tired..
after running frm zhenghua to
segar lrt station..
but along the way, i was
racing with my fren,
hu was riding a bike..
I was in front of him,
when suddenly, i heard
a loud thud..
I turned back, and saw my fren
on the ground..
I was so worried, man..
i ran to him to see if he's ok,
i searched thoroughly all over him
to detect bruises.. but he sustained
minor ones.. he told me tt the bike
almost came into contact with my leg,
i could have tripped and fell,
head first..
it could have been fatal...
instead of thrusting forward,
he braked, because he was cycling
at a high velocity, the inertia
was high too..
When he braked, the bike
tumbled over..360 degrees.
His butt hit the ground first,
lucky not his head..
phew..thank God.
When i saw his condition,
it reli scared me off my ass..
haiz...

*missin' u...*

I have been leading a
torturous life these
few days..
i din have the medicine
for my sickness.
perhaps i have to wait
long to retrieve it.
I'm totally dependant
on that person to cure me.
He has to get that thing
for me..if nt,
it will get worse..
ARGHH!!!
SOMEBODY SAVE ME!!!
Someday i can't control
my addiction and...
i duno what i'll do.
haiz..actually,
the 'medicine' is a handphone
which is not faulty, as long as
it can be used.
im sick, cuz i've nt been smsing
her for the past few days..
though we're in the same sch,
but i still dn get the chance
to meet her or even talk to her.
"So near yet so far.."
I miss u, gerl..
I miss u a lot.
the person hu can get me
what i want, is none other
than my father...
please dad, get me a new
phone, perhaps a usable
one..it doesn't need to be
brand new..

flu...SHOOO!!!!

I wasn't feeling very well
today..actually, i've been
unwell since last night.
My sister, beat me up with
pillows..perhaps i must have
breathed in the dirty dust
tt's on the pillows.
We were fighting duno for what,
then she threw all the pillows
in the living room at me.
One moment later, i sneezed..
Oh god, that signalled that
im gonna have a flu.
Bloody Hell!!!
I was searching desperately
for tissues.
I was like a drug addict,
foraging the cupboards,
wardrobes, etc..
just to find tissue.
lucky my mum kept some.
It was actually for her own
usage, but she pitied me
so she gave it to me.

Today, i went to school..
i was quite ok but during
DnT lesson, due the
presence of dust,
cuz im in a dnt room,
DUST AGAIN???!!!
that colourless,
slimy liquid,
*i dunno what it's called*
kept oozing out frm
my nose..damn irritating.
I din absorb much for
today's lessons..
probably 10%-20% only..
i had to concentrate on
getting rid of tt slimy liquid.
HAHA!!!
I was so damn relieved
when i reached home.
I quickly ate panadol,
and im feeling better!!..
than ever..
=)

so tired of it..

haiz..what is this bullshit.
as days pass by, im
getting so restless of it...
im trying to pack it up
and dispose it somewhere
far from here..
so that i wun be able to
find it or come across it.
But......damn it!!!
i end up looking for it..
what the hell is wrong, man???
i've vowed to get rid of it..
That was a year back..
Why must it come to me??
or should i put it this way,
why must i go to it??
The previous one ended
all of a sudden..
how will this one end?
I'm sure this one, haiz..
it's gonna take a lot
of effort to do so..
it might take time too,
a year? 2 years? 3 years?
a decade?
haiz...i'll leave this to God.
may He grant my needs..
Anyway...
just now i went back to sch
to do my homework
with my 2 frens.
Before goin to sch, i went to
kfc cuz my stomach
was grumbling..my mum had
not cooked at that time.
After that, i walked to school,
fastening my pace each and
every second of the time.
When i arrived at sch, i saw
my frens and sat with them..
did my history hw, haiz..
was so boring..was getting
wormy by the time i did
the 2nd question.
then groups of students
came down from the
auditorium perhaps,
wsidol?? oh, who cares..
i just continued with my
work..we joked around
for sometime but when the
short hand of the clock
reaches 2030, i did
my homework more seriously,
feeling eager to complete it..
in the end i finished it..
was so relieved..28wks to
the Battle Of Knowledge..
but i just feel like it's
28days, *sigh*..

yay!!!..

Im so glad to hear that
she's back..YAY!!!
haha...
wanna sms her bt she's
overseas.
i miss her so much, man..
For the past few days,
i kept looking at my hp,
waiting for her msg..
then i rmbr tt she's nt
in s'pore..
haiz.....
but now tt she's back,
hell, man.
I cant sms her for
the time being.
my hp is spoilt..
not reali actually...
what happened is this,
when i tried to charge it,
nothing happened..
so there's a possibility
that the internal part of
my hp is faulty,
or my charger is faulty..
i already asked my bro
to bring it to a phone shop
to send for treatment..hehe..
I hope my hp will be fine.