level 1..accomplished

hmm...common tests,
it's over..
it's left with MT mock
exam..which is next friday.
Wish me luck..
I just need to buck-up my
chemistry..esp balancing eqns.
i feel that to know how to
balance equations,
is the heart of it.
Once u noe it well,
everything would be simple
for u to get As..
I'm just so happy that
i dun have any burden
anymore..i mean,
tests..
Anyway, i reli had a moody day
today.. i headed for pending
lrt station early..but then,
there was some major problem
with the bloody train.
I waited for almost 15mins..
By then, the platform was full
of commuters..
and the train was crowded..
i can hardly do my morning
exercise, man..
As i read my watch, (actually
i din have my watch at that time)
it was 0715h.
I rushed to school..hoping
that she's hopelessly waiting
for me under the hut.
It's totally my fault.
I should have followed my instincts.
to wajihah,
IM TERRIBLY SORRY!!!
I RELI MADE A FOOL OF U..
PLEASE FORGIVE ME..

damn pissed off, man..

*sigh*...
she's been going thru
pain all these while..
she's still a prey
to many students in sch.
But WHY?
Im sure she wun do such
things to hurt her
predators' feelings..
I noe her well and she's
not that kind of person..
What is it that those
bastards or bitches
want frm her??
Actually, i pity her..
She is already having
a hard time coping
with her personal
problems at home.
and now, she has to
cope with things in
school, how stupid..
Haiz...some ppl
just dunno when to
stop their nonsense.
Whatever it is, i'll
always support u
in fighting this "war".
approach me for
any help, im willing...

-to dearest wajihah..

inconsistent subject grades..

im darn happy to
find out that my math
grade improved drastically.
from C6 to B4 to A2..
was it just LUCK???
or my all-time hard effort??
anyway, what matters is
i improved.. =)
here comes the worse part..
MY CHEMISTRY GRADES..
they FLOPPED..
arrgghh!!!!
i failed for the recent test..
29 out of 60..
i was so devastated, man.
all those equations,
elements, etc..
is driving me into insanity..
i dun care, i must
get it over with..
i must revise this subj
all over again, from level 1..
malay GCE O' level is around
the corner..
29May i guess.
mdm hasnah has been giving
us wkshts. So far i did
reasonably well but i need to
improve on it too..
What made my grades good,
is that IM HAPPY.
I dunno why, but i guess
it's the reason.
She makes me happy,
but sometimes sad too..
and not to mention,
angry and upset as well.
haha..but those are
actually happiness behind
each and every one of them,
and im so happy to have met her.
i feel blessed, i must say..
I LOVE U SOOOO MUCH.

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sigh...
questions seem to
flow freely in my
mind like air.
Questions that are
the reason i cant
pay full attention
to my studies.
Why, man? Why?
There are just too
many of them in
my 512MB head.
I dun believe in
monkey love, or
whatever they call it.
I take matters like this
seriously..
i dun treat ladies like
bunch of handphones.
No, i dun.
I dun dump as soon as
i got a new one.
No, i dun.
I made a very big
mistake once..
a promise that i've
treated it as nothing.
I din fulfil the promise.
now, i feel guilty..
i just dunno why.
and not to mention,
I MADE THAT PROMISE..
and i din go by it???
*sigh...*
I suffered from depression
when she said that
sentence to me..
i was filled with guilt.
Now, someone has re-opened
up my heart..
but what's weird is,
the same thing happened.
It was love at first sight.
I confessed evrything to
her.. but it really took
me long to actually have
the guts to do so..
However, i din go into
a relationship for
im not ready for one.
But, im actually treating
her as if we're couple..
isn't that similar to going
into a relationship???
What's my decision, anyway?
Me, myself and I don't noe.
Whatever it is, i dun
wish to hurt another heart,
never...

moodless jam'..

i went jamming today
at alvron which is at
bukit timah..
i din wanna go but
my fren insisted on
paying for me so
i went.
I set off at 4+ to meet
my fren..
He said that a few
girls frm his class,
jingyi, yewting and alicia,
wanted to come along
So we waited for them
for a while..
When we reached there,
we played only a few
songs.
We din have full force
cuz we're missing one
player..(farid)
Most of the songs were
not played very well..=(
Our drummer(angelo)
came late cuz he had
church stuff..
He came a few mins
before the jammin ended.
We planned to book
again but we had no choice
but to book at 8pm..
We ate at al-ameen while
waiting for time.
It's already 8pm so
we payed the bill and
went in.
The girls took our pics.
We thought of having
them as our groupees..
hehe...
We had fun and sad at
the same time too..
cuz we din manage to
make the girls enjoy..
we reli suck today...
an apology to the girl
was made by me.
haiz...the rest intended
to jam again tmr..(sat)
but ali cant come cuz he
has to help with his
relative's marriage..
angelo said he'll try
cuz he's afraid that
his parents may not
allow him, he has been
going out since, which we
are not aware.
Me? Hmm..
im nt so sure too..
im down with flu
which has been annoying
me. I couldn't play
well cuz of my flu..
about tmr, im afraid
i have to see my mood..
i can't afford to go out
2 days in a row..and
for u info,
i came hm at 10pm
today..and that's late.
my parents would surely
be angry with me, man..
anyway, gotta go now..
i really miss her like crazy.
Din get to chat with her
that much.. *sigh*.

The best and worst night class...

i went for night class today..
but i went home first
before going for night class.
I reached school at 6pm.
It was creepy,
so quiet..there was hardly
any noise..
I sat down to do my
maths revision..
few mins later, my frens arrived.
we studied for 2hrs,
listening to mp3.
drinking hot milo..
the milo was yummy..
it drove my fren to addiction..
haha..
2030h, we packed our things
to go home..
we walked home just for fun.
When we reached zhenghua sec,
decided to run..
surprisingly, i wasn't tired..
after running frm zhenghua to
segar lrt station..
but along the way, i was
racing with my fren,
hu was riding a bike..
I was in front of him,
when suddenly, i heard
a loud thud..
I turned back, and saw my fren
on the ground..
I was so worried, man..
i ran to him to see if he's ok,
i searched thoroughly all over him
to detect bruises.. but he sustained
minor ones.. he told me tt the bike
almost came into contact with my leg,
i could have tripped and fell,
head first..
it could have been fatal...
instead of thrusting forward,
he braked, because he was cycling
at a high velocity, the inertia
was high too..
When he braked, the bike
tumbled over..360 degrees.
His butt hit the ground first,
lucky not his head..
phew..thank God.
When i saw his condition,
it reli scared me off my ass..
haiz...

*missin' u...*

I have been leading a
torturous life these
few days..
i din have the medicine
for my sickness.
perhaps i have to wait
long to retrieve it.
I'm totally dependant
on that person to cure me.
He has to get that thing
for me..if nt,
it will get worse..
ARGHH!!!
SOMEBODY SAVE ME!!!
Someday i can't control
my addiction and...
i duno what i'll do.
haiz..actually,
the 'medicine' is a handphone
which is not faulty, as long as
it can be used.
im sick, cuz i've nt been smsing
her for the past few days..
though we're in the same sch,
but i still dn get the chance
to meet her or even talk to her.
"So near yet so far.."
I miss u, gerl..
I miss u a lot.
the person hu can get me
what i want, is none other
than my father...
please dad, get me a new
phone, perhaps a usable
one..it doesn't need to be
brand new..

flu...SHOOO!!!!

I wasn't feeling very well
today..actually, i've been
unwell since last night.
My sister, beat me up with
pillows..perhaps i must have
breathed in the dirty dust
tt's on the pillows.
We were fighting duno for what,
then she threw all the pillows
in the living room at me.
One moment later, i sneezed..
Oh god, that signalled that
im gonna have a flu.
Bloody Hell!!!
I was searching desperately
for tissues.
I was like a drug addict,
foraging the cupboards,
wardrobes, etc..
just to find tissue.
lucky my mum kept some.
It was actually for her own
usage, but she pitied me
so she gave it to me.

Today, i went to school..
i was quite ok but during
DnT lesson, due the
presence of dust,
cuz im in a dnt room,
DUST AGAIN???!!!
that colourless,
slimy liquid,
*i dunno what it's called*
kept oozing out frm
my nose..damn irritating.
I din absorb much for
today's lessons..
probably 10%-20% only..
i had to concentrate on
getting rid of tt slimy liquid.
HAHA!!!
I was so damn relieved
when i reached home.
I quickly ate panadol,
and im feeling better!!..
than ever..
=)

so tired of it..

haiz..what is this bullshit.
as days pass by, im
getting so restless of it...
im trying to pack it up
and dispose it somewhere
far from here..
so that i wun be able to
find it or come across it.
But......damn it!!!
i end up looking for it..
what the hell is wrong, man???
i've vowed to get rid of it..
That was a year back..
Why must it come to me??
or should i put it this way,
why must i go to it??
The previous one ended
all of a sudden..
how will this one end?
I'm sure this one, haiz..
it's gonna take a lot
of effort to do so..
it might take time too,
a year? 2 years? 3 years?
a decade?
haiz...i'll leave this to God.
may He grant my needs..
Anyway...
just now i went back to sch
to do my homework
with my 2 frens.
Before goin to sch, i went to
kfc cuz my stomach
was grumbling..my mum had
not cooked at that time.
After that, i walked to school,
fastening my pace each and
every second of the time.
When i arrived at sch, i saw
my frens and sat with them..
did my history hw, haiz..
was so boring..was getting
wormy by the time i did
the 2nd question.
then groups of students
came down from the
auditorium perhaps,
wsidol?? oh, who cares..
i just continued with my
work..we joked around
for sometime but when the
short hand of the clock
reaches 2030, i did
my homework more seriously,
feeling eager to complete it..
in the end i finished it..
was so relieved..28wks to
the Battle Of Knowledge..
but i just feel like it's
28days, *sigh*..

yay!!!..

Im so glad to hear that
she's back..YAY!!!
haha...
wanna sms her bt she's
overseas.
i miss her so much, man..
For the past few days,
i kept looking at my hp,
waiting for her msg..
then i rmbr tt she's nt
in s'pore..
haiz.....
but now tt she's back,
hell, man.
I cant sms her for
the time being.
my hp is spoilt..
not reali actually...
what happened is this,
when i tried to charge it,
nothing happened..
so there's a possibility
that the internal part of
my hp is faulty,
or my charger is faulty..
i already asked my bro
to bring it to a phone shop
to send for treatment..hehe..
I hope my hp will be fine.

i hate what ur doin..

FRIENDS are always there
to help u, to motivate u..
sometimes having friends
are an advantage and a
disadvantage too.
If u mingle with the correct
friends, you'll change for
the better.
If you mingle with the wrong
ones, it's obvious you'll
change for hell..
you'll be the devil,
destroying others' life
and so on.
Unless you know how to
conduct yourself,
listen to your parents,
go home straight after
school..
In my case, i dunno which
one are my friends made up of.
BAD? or GOOD?
They're gd in such a way that,
they're always there to help me
in my studies like in
maths, physics, chemistry, etc..
i appreciate their helping hands...
there's always a 'BUT' for every
compliments you give.
What i dun like about my friends
are,
they like to meddle with my
personal matters..
WHY??
They'll try to be busy-bodies..
when they speak, they dun
think abt ur feelings,
whether ur hurt or not.
That's why i dun believe
in having best friends, or
even good friends..
I only believe in having friends.
Best friends care for u,
care what's in ur heart,
care about ur feelings.
I've made up my mind..
When their mind is in
'STUDY MODE',
i'll join them..
but once they start talking
abt anything tt is not
in relation to 'EDUCATION',
i'll back off..
as easy as eating a candy..

"ginga VS bangla"

im supposed to post abt
this 2 yesterday...
this is regarding our PE.
Aft we ran 3 rounds arnd
the sch, we were given
free time so we played
soccer..i mean the guys.
Surprisingly, 4A n 4B
combined and we played
a match.
we separated ourselves
in this way..
those who think tt they're gd,
they'll be the "ginga".
u noe me, im a humble guy..
so i din join "ginga".
at that time, we din assign
a name for our(my) team.
The name "bangla"
suddenly striked us
when farid was dribbling..
sooraj kept shouting,
"Eh bangla, pass!!!"
HAHA!!! we laughed like hell
bt we still played the game.
sooraj din realise tt he
himself is a bangla..HAHA.
Frm then, we kept calling
each other "bangla" when
anyone of us was dribbling
the ball.
Amazingly, "bangla" won
2:0
haha...faiz scored for the 1st
time in 4 yrs..haha..
now then he scored, cuz
he's nt VERY gd in soccer..
second goal was scored
by ME!!!
woohoo!!
it was the best PE
we've ever had..

wah, i've been receiving
lots of hmwork..
the one tt im so reluctant
to do is Dnt(folio)..
it's so sux, man.
i reli need to crack my brain
to get ideas, and it's nt
1 idea, it's 12IDEAS.
I nearly suffered frm
depression cuz of tt..
i mean im already sufferin
frm depression..HAHA!!!
The other subjects, i dun
have any problem..
i just nid to revise em'
all over again frm sec3
syllabus.
Im desperate for time, man..
i need it.

Today n yesterday, i went
to faiz's place along
with another fren of mine, farid.
We went there to do our
SS project..
wads the use of this project??
mr santokh always ask us(4A) to
DO all kinds of things, n surely,
without fail, will ask us
to present in front of the sch..
this is so stupid, lame n a
WASTE OF TIME...
we're supposed to present this
crap next tuesday during
the morning assembly,
before the national anthem.
question is,
will the bloody-ass students
listen?? cuz if they do not,
we'll only be making a fool of
ourselves..destroying 4A's
reputation and pride.
anyway, back at faiz's house,
we played around with the com
most of the time.
We made a code for ourselves..
whenever we go to his house,
the moment we say,
"wanna relieve stress?"..
now, tt's a good sign.
it means...
LETS PLAY PS2..
YAY!!!
haha...
it was reli fun, haha..

school

stress reliever...

YEAH...
finally i can relieve
my stress on monday..
wanna noe why??
cuz im going jamming..
woohoo, i'l hav a hell of a fun
there cuz tt's the only day
i can relieve my stress..
im gonna jump alot,
smash the gtr,
punch my frens,
shout at the owner
and then burn the building..
nah, jz kidding...
whatever happens, i
must nvr neglect my
revision for O levels..
i'll be the happiest man if
i get less than what i got
last yr for the L1R5..

i'll accept ur decision..

..i've been trying
to make it up with
a gerl, who used to be
my special fren.
Ever since we broke up,
we din really talk to
each other,
even though we're in
the same class..
im being selfish..or
is it her??
but i dun understand
why must this happen?
we can't be frens, that's
what she said to me..
she's the most
unreasonable gerl i've
ever met..
she's using the past
in this situation...
i guess there's nth i
cn do abt it..
since she tinks tt our
friendship is not right..
i'll accept tt..
we'll nt be frens or
anything related to frens..
what's the purpose of
appreciating n cherishing
our beautiful moments??
i'll juz throw those away
in the garbage under my blk..
it's the end..

enlightenment...finally!!

im so relieved...
i watched the movie,
'catch me if u can'
and it reli enlightened me..
i had a hard time
deciding my own future.
i've decided to become
a pilot...
basic requirements??
get A1 for
physics, maths & eng..
i'l do my best..
i hope they dn judge
by skin color..
hope they're nt racist.

my first scary experience..

i was walking home
frm sch..
this incident happened
when i was under my
block..a few metres
away frm the lift..
when i was walking,
i din realise i was
being followed..
then all of a sudden,
tt thing juz
appeared right
beside me..
i was so shocked..
first thought,
that thing was jz
passing by..
then it stopped..
approaching the stairs,
it went up and waited
for me..
it jz stared at me..
it looked so fierce, man.
i was already thinking
that it might hurt me..
reaching the lift,
it took one last glance at me,
and went off..
phew...i was really scared u noe.
haha...
wondering what that
thing was???
IT WAS A DOG...keke..

fast...

2 months have passed,
time is moving very fast..
close and open my eyes,
realise that it's the
3rd month now..
n im stil not familiar
with the subjects i'm
taking.
i need to do something or
my future wil be destroyed,
my dreams will
always be a dream...
planning to go JC,
either Nationals,
Catholic, or Innova..
bt seriously, i duno
which one to go to..
but why go to the best
JCs??
just go to the nearest one la..
then cn go back early
to meet my wajihah...
hmm...maybe i
should reconsider huh..
maybe pioneer,
or innova...
O' levels, here i come!!!

-aimi

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