..

I guess this is the only
way i can express out.
And i'm sure you will
be able to read.
To be frank, i've had
enough stirring troubles
in your life.
I made it worse.
Your mum knows you've been
smsing me.
under these circumstances,
it's time for us to forget
each other.
Even if you have to destroy
the love, i encourage u
to DO IT..
There's no way out, wajihah.
It's pre-destined.
There's no opportunity
for us to meet, to talk..
i have no other choice,
this is my last resort.
I'm so sorry... ='(

thinkin of you always..

..took me some time
of my life to create
this mixture of many
elements.
I kinda got used to
photoshop.
N i'm familiar with it.
I even had to steal some
pics frm someone..hehe.
would like to apologize
for that.
Jangan marah hah..

15.06.2006

well, erm..today i had
history lesson, my
whole class.
We were only 1 and 1/2
chapters away and we've
finished the whole
history syllabus.
And of cuz, we finished it.
It was held in the auditorium
and we all got cold aft some time.
We asked Mr Singh tt we're cold.
He was, too..haha.
He din have his hp with him
at tt time so he borrowed my
friend's to call the G.O.
to increase the temp. of the
aircon.
We ended at approximately 12.
Tt was kinda early.
I walked frm sch to cashew rd
cuz we were playing soccer
in a condo.
that's where my fren lives.
Since it was early,
i walked there along with
sooraj and faiz.
Faiz lives in fajar so on the way,
he went home.
So me n sooraj walked to the condo.
We were so tired.
Arrived at the condo, we sat
down to rest.
All the express classes, ABC,
came and Mr Prakash too.
I was wearing a shoe, not meant
for soccer, so i had to take it out.
The ground was damn rough,
and it cut my foot.
I had blisters, many of them.
I can't even walk properly.
It was so painful u noe.
I had to limp, like handicap.
haiz..
no sms today,
everything was silent.
kept looking at my hp,
bt it was useless.
She can't sms nor call.
hp has been taken away
by her mum, like i've said
in the previous post.
It all happened so fast.
wish i could call her.
what to do..haiz..
suddenly, i miss her.
it's just one day we din
sms, it's like one yr to me.
i hope u'll retrieve ur hp soon.
i love u.

situation has worsened..

i realised smth since
i befriended her.
Bad things just happen
to her..haiz.
Phone bills went up,
sometimes her stuffs
are confiscated by her
protective parents.
She's always reprimanded.
and all the stuff.
I just can't stop sighing.
As the 'love' grows,
more problems arose.
I think we're nt meant
for each other.
It's like we're going against
fate.
All along, i thought u were
the one who would end my
misery, sadness, etc.
I want u to be the one.
Symptons have showed up
tt what i've been thinking
might nt be true.
I just dunno what to do.
Things tt i've planned,
and things tt we plan,
seem not to work at
the 11th hour.
I'm so sorry, wajihah.
For causing all the bloody
troubles in ur life.
I've worsened ur family ties.
i wana end all these once and
for all.
I wan u to lead a peaceful life.
the only way is,
......
to just forget abt each other.
haiz..
i nvr wanted to do this,
nvr intended to.
just wana tell u tt i'm
pretty upset and sad
writing this post.
I wish it nvr happened,
bt it did,
it just did.
haiz..

superman returns

yeah..superman is returning.
bt it's nt christopher reeves.
He's gone to hereafter.
One minute silence plz...

He's like the best person
hu could act as a superman.
bt wad a pity...
anyway, looking forward to this
superman returns movie.
here are some pics of the
new superman.

you people suck..

i haven't been happy
lately...nor was i sad.
I'm deeply stucked in
the middle of
happy and upset.
It's bcuz of everyone,
and everything that takes
place in my useless life.
Sometimes i wonder,
why was i born?
I noe this is religious matter,
i can't change tt.
My mum said tt,
ppl who are born in the month
of june are usually,
stubborn, bad, and all those
negative properties...
Maybe that explains my character.
I've been trying to change tt
destiny..
been trying reli hard.
I'm all to myself now.
no one's guiding me.
It's me, alone..
I have to determine my own
future, my life...
one wrong step, n
it's all f@#$^% over.
sometimes i feel that
i suck...i just duno why.
i would like to say..
i'm sorry, people..
if i'm hard or harsh on u guys.
I noe i'm a sensitive person,
one wrong word frm u can
change me..totally.
U people will turn cold
towards me aft tt.
u people will start to hate me,
will start to avoid me,
will stop caring for me,
will stop loving me,
will LEAVE ME.
THIS RELI SUCKS!!!!!!
I'm a spoilt child..
haiz..
so stay away frm me if
you want...
this goes to everyone.
i'm all alone now.
I dun need anyone.
I'll just die on no one's arms.

just a sigh to me...

I guess i'm the
black sheep of the
family.
If anyone among my
siblings incl me were to
be scolded,
i would be the one hu
would receive maximum.
Just bcuz i came home
late frm my fren's house,
last sat...my mum began to have
the cold shoulder towards me.
I dun exist to her..
sometimes i feel sad,
terribly..n i shouldn't have
fought back her words.
I know i was rude to her.
Just a lil info abt myself,
i will fight for what's right..
that's my character..
so i will fight back, be it using
words or anything...
Haiz...
Whatever she does,
she's still my mum..
i can't do anything.
What can i possibly do
to ease her?
I've been keeping to myself
lately cuz i dn wana
add oil to the hot fire.
I hope she forgives me..:(

Now, my sweetie is not
in s'pore..
she is the one hu would
be by my side in times
of problems...
She would make me happy,
make me smile..n ease my mind.
She's gone to kl with her family
for 5 days or later..
I just miss her..haiz..
there's no one in this world
hu has ever cared so much
for me, except her..
tt's why sometimes, she's
my sister and my fren..
Love has grown in m heart.
I hope tt love lasts till
i've reached my goal of life.
I wan to be with her all my life.
I noe it's very embarrassing
for a guy to weep..
cuz guy is supposed to be
the tough ones..
bt to me, guys have the
soft part too...n i'm
the emotional type.
I dunno what will be of me
if i hadn't met her..
Thanks alot, Allah...
for meeting me with
such a wonderful girl.
I'll nt do anything stupid that
is hated by Him.
I'll take good care of her n
will never disappoint her.