Night cycling

Looks like i have a bike
group of my own..
Whenever we go cycling,
it's always the same people.
Suraj, Farid and me..
Just last night, we went on
an adventurous trip around
choa chu kang..
All the dark places we went.
It wasn't my idea actually.
It was Suraj's.
The army detention barrack
was located so deep inside.
We decided to check it out.
As we were cycling up the
deserted road..we saw some
soldiers standing at the gate
and it was so silent..
Suraj thought they were
statues..and the instructors
were talking to the soldiers
quietly..
I bet they were up to something.
We u-turn to go to the big canal
and suraj showed us.
It was really huge and dark.
REALLY DARK, EERIE and DESERTED.
the only source of light was the moon
and i thought it was already bright.
We kept cycling down the pavement.
It was slippery and the feeling that
the water from the tyres hit our
legs, was unpleasant..
The light was dim and we could
hardly see whether it was canal
water or...or.. BLOOD!!??
You know what, we were really
lucky that Suraj led the way.
We were damn lucky that he
has light on his bike...
Just a few metres away, we saw a
signboard which read, "deep waters,
keep away, etc.."
It's a dead end.
If we hadn't stopped,
all of us would have fallen
off the STEEP slope and into
the deep waters.
We then saw buildings and colourful
lights at the other side.
We thought for quite some time.
Suraj then told us that that
place is Malaysia, Johore.
I was like..WHAT??
Malaysia? Near to Yew Tee?
And he kept convincing us.
We searched for networks on
our mobile phone..and there it was.
Malaysia operating reception:
Celcom, My Maxis, etc..
That was really Malaysia!!!
I was astonished..
Suraj took a big rock and threw
it into the waters..
The ripples spread really wide.
That means the depth is very
deep..
After that we headed back on course
and me and farid cycled
pretty fast back to Bukit Panjang.
Overall, it was really an adventurous
trip.. Hope we can go for the same trip
but more adventurous one some other time.

Bus Fare

I just don't understand about the
bus fare charges thingy..
Who on earth came up with this?
If you are a secondary school or
a pre-U student, your ez link fare
would be 45 cents. If you pay by
cash, it would be 55 cents.
That's acceptable and affordable.
But i have a strong disapproval
with the adult fares..
The adult ezlink fare is 80 to 90 cents.
But if you pay by cash..
Gosh!! Goddamn, it's $1.50.
It's total crap lah..
To think that buses are seen as
a necessary medium of transportation
for most of us who don't own cars.
To think that the demand for buses
is price inelastic, which means that
a change in price of the bus fare
would lead to a less than proportionate
change in the quantity demand for it.
To increase their total revenue and
maximise profit, they jolly-well
raise the price of bus fares.
What's the difference between
ezlink fare and cash-bus fare?
What's the BIG difference that there
is a huge difference between the price?
Are they doing all these for their
own benefits or for our own good?

Riding..

I went to woodlands regional library
this afternoon with jingyi,
to do my math holiday assignment,
and also to accompany her.
She just has this weird 'thing'
that she can't study at home.
She doesn't feel cosy and can't
concentrate when she studies
at home..and i was like kept
telling her to try and change
her attitude of adapting to
new environments..
Because if you always study outdoors,
you would eventually be tired
by the time u reach home.
As this goes on, you'll be even
more tired and can't study.
In the end, u won't go out and study.
Anyway, we stopped and went to
kfc to eat.
It's been a while since i last
ate zinger burger.
It really tasted good..
I had to rush home as i need to
get farid's bike to meet suraj
at the mac at bpp.
We were going cycling.
Actually, he wanted to test out
his walkie talkie.
Haha..it was kinda cool you know.
I brought mine too and connected
the walkie talkies.
We talked crap over the W.T.
We pushed our bikes along bangkit shops
and made unnecessary calls over the W.T,
people started looking at us.
It was really cool lah.
Wish we could bring the rest of
our friends and cycle together
and have a walkie talkie
in our hands and talking crap.
We haven't been doing that..

Dreams are killing..

It is my dream to fly.
It is my dream to be airborne.
It is my dream to sit in a cockpit.
And i already have, and still.
However, my dream is really
killing me.
It is really stressful to fly.
You got to get everything right.
You have to be a fast learner.
You have to make sure you do
your homeworks before flight.
I can do all that but the time
span that is available is just
not adequate.
seldom do i have the free time.
And not everyone can advance
to the PPL course.
Like the OM said, "it's ok if you
get phased out for everything
flight is a bonus."
I somehow agreed with that
but that doesn't mean i have
to let myself get phased out.
Oh God, please give me the
strength and motivation..

..i was part of it too

I just had a realization.
I was a part of it too.
After her phone was confiscated,
and we lost contact.
Her mum discovered about us
when she confiscated her phone.
Few weeks later, we managed
to contact each other via msn.
I was so so angry with her for
not even trying to contact me
that i somehow..scolded her.
I was too harsh on her..
Aaarghhh!!! Why do i realize it now?
She became mad at me and sent me
this email that changed my
personality till now.
In that email, included the lame
excuses why we lack the
compatibility, and that we should
go separate ways and all that crap.
Sigh...................................................
But it's too late right now.
Nothing can change her mind.
Her mind is set, i'm no longer
in her picture gallery.
No matter how hard i try,
i still can't get her back.
I hardly get the chance to
chat with her...
I'm really such a hardass..

sortie 2

I had my sortie 2 today.
Seriously i'm slower than the rest.
But it's ok, i'm gonna book the
whole of next week.
I need to catch up..gosh..
It's 6 more flights to go
and it's not like i can get
all of the bookings.
Anyway, i cleared my external
checks, which means i can just
do the external checks first
and wait for my instructor
in the aircraft.
I learned how to navigate
the plane.
Nothing much really..
But things are becoming better
and better as i progress
from one sortie to another.

A new face..

Hi guys, i've just changed into a new skin. And i've yet to update on certain parts. Don't worry, i'll update soon. As for the music, i'll update once every 2 days or so. So enjoy.. =)

..continued, 15.06.07 4A Outing

4A Outing 15/06/07

I just can't bring myself
to talk to you.
I'm sorry pal.
I just can't.
I mean, i wanted to.
But with the rest
making those unnecessary
gestures, it just changed my mind.
It doesn't seem right anymore.
I'm just sorry, man.

What type of heart does she has?
Why do i say that?
That's because, when we fell apart,
under my reluctance,
there was just no side effects for her.
She was just fine.
How did she do that?
I'm darn sad and depressed,
unfortunately till now,
she's now so happy with her friends.
And even now, heard she has a crush
on someone else.
That was pretty fast.
Was her feelings when we
were together real?
I still remember her saying
it was the first time
she was really really fallin
in love.
I felt happy for that.
We were chattin like we
were really so into each other.
All the really funny jokes we made,
S....I..G...H...
i really miss those jokes.
Whenever we were bored,
we would sms each other.
I guess we sms each other 24/7.
We would ask each other to
go online, pushing each other around.
Wonder how all these could just
be blown away in just
one glimpse of an eye.
How i wish i could talk to her
right now.
She can't imagine how badly
i miss her right now
That cheerful look on her face
makes me jealous.
Though we're in different
institutions right now,
which was supposed to be a
good thing for couples who
had just went separate ways,
i just miss her so much.
She made me so happy..
till i even placed my student
council tie and position
on the DM's table with no regrets.
I did all that for her.
Not that she wanted me to,
i wanna spend my time with her,
rather than going round the school
capturing victims of regulations.
Now i'm bringin it all out.
WAJIHAH!!! HOW CAN I GET U
TO EVEN TALK TO ME!!!???
Please..just by talking to u,
it would make me really happy..
no strings attached..
please..please.. ='(
God..

On my way home from SYFC,
I was bus service no 963.
There was also a girl, i can't
really tell her age.
Perhaps my age? Haha.
Ok, time for description.
She was so so fine, broke my mind.
She was really pretty and
dressed up well.
One thing she's hotzz..haha
Ok, it's so random that i'm
posting about this.
I just feel like posting. Haha.
Today was parents teachers day
at SYFC.
Parents were given joyrides and
tours around the club/school.
I managed to see the aircraft
that my parents boarded
which is Oscar-Mike.
I wonder how will my parents'
reactions be?
My mum would definitely be
screaming at the top of her lungs.
My dad..hmm..i don't know.
I ought to ask my mum about him.
Haha..well, i gotta go now. Bye.

There is one thing I wish to forget about.
She's a nice person in my eyes.
And I've been carrying a torch for her
ever since we were separated.
I've always thought that we are meant
to be together again, maybe someday.
But after getting something clear,
I guess we will never be together again.
She will go away from me, very far away.
We might never meet in the future.
That would be a sad thing for me.
I wanted to move on but..sigh..
Just last night, i dreamt of her.
Recalling, i was in a classroom sitting
right next to her.
We were talking to each other as if
we're bestest of friends.
When it was time for me to go,
i bid her farewell and walked off.
Of course, my dream wasn't this short,
it was much longer.
Never mind, maybe it's best if i keep
it to myself.
I just wish that we would be like before.

I had my sortie 1 today.
It was my first flight.
Nervous and afraid I was.
Instructor showed me
the external checks.
Quite easy I must say.
Boarded the piper and
strapped in.
Throttle open.
Test brakes.
My reflexes were somehow
insensitive to orders.
I was screwed.
Frankly, i did not even know
how much must I step the
rudder brakes, etc.
I was asked to taxy to whiskey 1.
It didn't went smoothly.
My inst. scolded me and
lectured me like hell.
When airborne, I was shown the
checkpoints.
I screwed up in some parts too.
Damn..my mind was really somewhere
else today.
Finally, my inst. did some
beyond-extraordinary manoveures
and stunts: beyond positive and negative
3G. That was really beyond limits la.
My body couldn't really take it.
I actually wanted my inst. to stop it.
But it's my dream, why not get over it?
I managed to fight it..yippie.
after landing..my taxying back to the
dispersal was better.
Even my inst. complimented me.
Really felt relieved.
After debrief, i know most of the things
that i'm supposed to know.

I've just completed my Sim 1 today.
I was really a noob.
I didn't even know how to
operate the flaps. (Now i know)
I was really an idiot la.
We're supposed to pull the lever
back a bit and the depress the button.
I foolishly tried to depress the button
without doing the first step.
At first i thought i wasn't strong enough.
Then it would be very hard for me
when i'm in a real aircraft. Haha.
I also had mental block.(wonder if it's
spelled correctly)
I had practiced my checks really
carefully.
The moment i entered the visually
manipulated machine, everything
was gone.
I had to refer to the FRC.
I felt that i left a damn bad impression
on Mr Hi(the sim instructor).
But he's really a nice guy.
Glad to have him as our instructor. =)
Wish me the best.

A/C: Skylark ops, skylark 89 radio check
ATC: Skylark 89, skylark ops read you strength 5, number 1 for taxy
A/C: Skylark 89 strength 5, number 1 for taxy
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Cool ain't it?
You don't really understand it, right?
This is less than 10% of what i've
learnt during the 3 to 4 weeks of
being in SYFC.
This is radio telephony.
I'm really thankful that i was
accepted to be one of the youths
in SYFC.
It's been a great journey.
Everytime we are having lectures,
we could hear the sounds of
engines that are gradually pumping
fuel.
It's really cool.
And we would gather at the room window
to witness the aircrafts taking off,
and landing too.
Some of my course mates have boarded
their first flights.
I'm just patiently waiting for mine.
I'm gonna work hard to get through
phase 1, and then all the way to PPL course.
MUAHAHA!!! =)

I really feel very sad
and deeply depressed.
I read a source online,
and learned that the
person that i've been
sort of carrying a torch
for, has a crush with
some other guy...
I don't blame her.
I'm just sad because
i'm surprised i don't
even exist to her anymore.
But everyday, every minute,
i feel her presence and her
heart beating.
She still exists to me.
I'm not gonna cry again.
I'm turning 17 this year.
Reaching adult stage.
I gotta put these things
aside for now.
My studies..
My ambition..
I have to settle these first.
I hope my next love, would
appreciate my love,
would always care for me,
would understand me,
and would always be with me,
which would be after i
achieved my dream.
Sigh.. ='(

I had physics extra lesson this morning,
from 0900 to 1000.
Actually, it wasn't even a lesson.
Just to give out our physics test.
Sadly, i failed. I hate the feeling, man.
I got 6 of 25.
It was really badly done.
Most of my classmates got higher,
as though the paper was an easy one.
However, at the sight of my test results,
instead of pulling me down, it brings me up.
I have the motivation to study harder
and do better for the subject that i'm
expected to get good grades.
As the bell rang, everyone stood
with joy as though we had just finished
our A levels. Haha.
After that, me and my classmates sat down
at the cafe to decide on the next
destination.
After much decisions, we went to bukit timah
to have our breakfast at Al-Azhar.
Foods were quite appetizing.
We generally ate similar foods: Roti Prata.
We then went to I.R.C to play pool.
Honestly, i've improved. Haha.
Though my posture looks really 'noob',
my shots were somehow quite accurate.
I really had fun at the I.R.C.
Whenever our shots didn't reach
the destination, we accused one another
of putting a curse.
We soon dominate the whole area. Haha.
2 hours of hitting balls with sticks, we then
headed for Soehendra's house for the
07S29 Winning Eleven Championship.
I lost at the second round. =(
Cuz i was assigned to Germany,
which I thought is a very strong team
but ironically, it isn't.
The players are damn slow ah.
I kept asking them to run in front,
but they just dilly-dallied.
Felt like smacking their faces.
But i'm no sore loser.
I guess i wasn't strong and skilful enough.
Reached home around 1920,
Aimi signing out.