Dreams are killing..

It is my dream to fly.
It is my dream to be airborne.
It is my dream to sit in a cockpit.
And i already have, and still.
However, my dream is really
killing me.
It is really stressful to fly.
You got to get everything right.
You have to be a fast learner.
You have to make sure you do
your homeworks before flight.
I can do all that but the time
span that is available is just
not adequate.
seldom do i have the free time.
And not everyone can advance
to the PPL course.
Like the OM said, "it's ok if you
get phased out for everything
flight is a bonus."
I somehow agreed with that
but that doesn't mean i have
to let myself get phased out.
Oh God, please give me the
strength and motivation..