so tired of it..

haiz..what is this bullshit.
as days pass by, im
getting so restless of it...
im trying to pack it up
and dispose it somewhere
far from here..
so that i wun be able to
find it or come across it.
But......damn it!!!
i end up looking for it..
what the hell is wrong, man???
i've vowed to get rid of it..
That was a year back..
Why must it come to me??
or should i put it this way,
why must i go to it??
The previous one ended
all of a sudden..
how will this one end?
I'm sure this one, haiz..
it's gonna take a lot
of effort to do so..
it might take time too,
a year? 2 years? 3 years?
a decade?
haiz...i'll leave this to God.
may He grant my needs..
Anyway...
just now i went back to sch
to do my homework
with my 2 frens.
Before goin to sch, i went to
kfc cuz my stomach
was grumbling..my mum had
not cooked at that time.
After that, i walked to school,
fastening my pace each and
every second of the time.
When i arrived at sch, i saw
my frens and sat with them..
did my history hw, haiz..
was so boring..was getting
wormy by the time i did
the 2nd question.
then groups of students
came down from the
auditorium perhaps,
wsidol?? oh, who cares..
i just continued with my
work..we joked around
for sometime but when the
short hand of the clock
reaches 2030, i did
my homework more seriously,
feeling eager to complete it..
in the end i finished it..
was so relieved..28wks to
the Battle Of Knowledge..
but i just feel like it's
28days, *sigh*..

yay!!!..

Im so glad to hear that
she's back..YAY!!!
haha...
wanna sms her bt she's
overseas.
i miss her so much, man..
For the past few days,
i kept looking at my hp,
waiting for her msg..
then i rmbr tt she's nt
in s'pore..
haiz.....
but now tt she's back,
hell, man.
I cant sms her for
the time being.
my hp is spoilt..
not reali actually...
what happened is this,
when i tried to charge it,
nothing happened..
so there's a possibility
that the internal part of
my hp is faulty,
or my charger is faulty..
i already asked my bro
to bring it to a phone shop
to send for treatment..hehe..
I hope my hp will be fine.

i hate what ur doin..

FRIENDS are always there
to help u, to motivate u..
sometimes having friends
are an advantage and a
disadvantage too.
If u mingle with the correct
friends, you'll change for
the better.
If you mingle with the wrong
ones, it's obvious you'll
change for hell..
you'll be the devil,
destroying others' life
and so on.
Unless you know how to
conduct yourself,
listen to your parents,
go home straight after
school..
In my case, i dunno which
one are my friends made up of.
BAD? or GOOD?
They're gd in such a way that,
they're always there to help me
in my studies like in
maths, physics, chemistry, etc..
i appreciate their helping hands...
there's always a 'BUT' for every
compliments you give.
What i dun like about my friends
are,
they like to meddle with my
personal matters..
WHY??
They'll try to be busy-bodies..
when they speak, they dun
think abt ur feelings,
whether ur hurt or not.
That's why i dun believe
in having best friends, or
even good friends..
I only believe in having friends.
Best friends care for u,
care what's in ur heart,
care about ur feelings.
I've made up my mind..
When their mind is in
'STUDY MODE',
i'll join them..
but once they start talking
abt anything tt is not
in relation to 'EDUCATION',
i'll back off..
as easy as eating a candy..

"ginga VS bangla"

im supposed to post abt
this 2 yesterday...
this is regarding our PE.
Aft we ran 3 rounds arnd
the sch, we were given
free time so we played
soccer..i mean the guys.
Surprisingly, 4A n 4B
combined and we played
a match.
we separated ourselves
in this way..
those who think tt they're gd,
they'll be the "ginga".
u noe me, im a humble guy..
so i din join "ginga".
at that time, we din assign
a name for our(my) team.
The name "bangla"
suddenly striked us
when farid was dribbling..
sooraj kept shouting,
"Eh bangla, pass!!!"
HAHA!!! we laughed like hell
bt we still played the game.
sooraj din realise tt he
himself is a bangla..HAHA.
Frm then, we kept calling
each other "bangla" when
anyone of us was dribbling
the ball.
Amazingly, "bangla" won
2:0
haha...faiz scored for the 1st
time in 4 yrs..haha..
now then he scored, cuz
he's nt VERY gd in soccer..
second goal was scored
by ME!!!
woohoo!!
it was the best PE
we've ever had..

wah, i've been receiving
lots of hmwork..
the one tt im so reluctant
to do is Dnt(folio)..
it's so sux, man.
i reli need to crack my brain
to get ideas, and it's nt
1 idea, it's 12IDEAS.
I nearly suffered frm
depression cuz of tt..
i mean im already sufferin
frm depression..HAHA!!!
The other subjects, i dun
have any problem..
i just nid to revise em'
all over again frm sec3
syllabus.
Im desperate for time, man..
i need it.

Today n yesterday, i went
to faiz's place along
with another fren of mine, farid.
We went there to do our
SS project..
wads the use of this project??
mr santokh always ask us(4A) to
DO all kinds of things, n surely,
without fail, will ask us
to present in front of the sch..
this is so stupid, lame n a
WASTE OF TIME...
we're supposed to present this
crap next tuesday during
the morning assembly,
before the national anthem.
question is,
will the bloody-ass students
listen?? cuz if they do not,
we'll only be making a fool of
ourselves..destroying 4A's
reputation and pride.
anyway, back at faiz's house,
we played around with the com
most of the time.
We made a code for ourselves..
whenever we go to his house,
the moment we say,
"wanna relieve stress?"..
now, tt's a good sign.
it means...
LETS PLAY PS2..
YAY!!!
haha...
it was reli fun, haha..

school

stress reliever...

YEAH...
finally i can relieve
my stress on monday..
wanna noe why??
cuz im going jamming..
woohoo, i'l hav a hell of a fun
there cuz tt's the only day
i can relieve my stress..
im gonna jump alot,
smash the gtr,
punch my frens,
shout at the owner
and then burn the building..
nah, jz kidding...
whatever happens, i
must nvr neglect my
revision for O levels..
i'll be the happiest man if
i get less than what i got
last yr for the L1R5..

i'll accept ur decision..

..i've been trying
to make it up with
a gerl, who used to be
my special fren.
Ever since we broke up,
we din really talk to
each other,
even though we're in
the same class..
im being selfish..or
is it her??
but i dun understand
why must this happen?
we can't be frens, that's
what she said to me..
she's the most
unreasonable gerl i've
ever met..
she's using the past
in this situation...
i guess there's nth i
cn do abt it..
since she tinks tt our
friendship is not right..
i'll accept tt..
we'll nt be frens or
anything related to frens..
what's the purpose of
appreciating n cherishing
our beautiful moments??
i'll juz throw those away
in the garbage under my blk..
it's the end..

enlightenment...finally!!

im so relieved...
i watched the movie,
'catch me if u can'
and it reli enlightened me..
i had a hard time
deciding my own future.
i've decided to become
a pilot...
basic requirements??
get A1 for
physics, maths & eng..
i'l do my best..
i hope they dn judge
by skin color..
hope they're nt racist.

my first scary experience..

i was walking home
frm sch..
this incident happened
when i was under my
block..a few metres
away frm the lift..
when i was walking,
i din realise i was
being followed..
then all of a sudden,
tt thing juz
appeared right
beside me..
i was so shocked..
first thought,
that thing was jz
passing by..
then it stopped..
approaching the stairs,
it went up and waited
for me..
it jz stared at me..
it looked so fierce, man.
i was already thinking
that it might hurt me..
reaching the lift,
it took one last glance at me,
and went off..
phew...i was really scared u noe.
haha...
wondering what that
thing was???
IT WAS A DOG...keke..

fast...

2 months have passed,
time is moving very fast..
close and open my eyes,
realise that it's the
3rd month now..
n im stil not familiar
with the subjects i'm
taking.
i need to do something or
my future wil be destroyed,
my dreams will
always be a dream...
planning to go JC,
either Nationals,
Catholic, or Innova..
bt seriously, i duno
which one to go to..
but why go to the best
JCs??
just go to the nearest one la..
then cn go back early
to meet my wajihah...
hmm...maybe i
should reconsider huh..
maybe pioneer,
or innova...
O' levels, here i come!!!

-aimi

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-aimi

not one more...

i've made one mistake during
my first love...
im not gonna make the
second one..
i'll make sure i wun..
im gonna treasure her
for as long as i cn afford.
I'l not find any reason to
start a fight..no way..

I'm gonna take this moment
And make it last forever ..
I'm gonna give my heart away
And pray we'll stay together
Cause you're the one good reason
You're the only girl that I need
Cause you're more beautiful
than I have ever seen

-aimi

understreet jammin' on 17 Feb..

-aimi

what's wrong with me?

i may look as if
im feeling well,
but actually,
im having a bad cough.
It just wun go away..
no flam.
I feel that there's smth
wrong with my lungs.
Maybe im exagerating,
but what if it's true..
i have a hard time
speaking too..
everytime i speak,
i'll cough..
it doesn't matter if it's a
light cough..
but instead, it's a
heavy cough..
a dying cough, it seems..
wad exactly is wrong with me??

-aimi

why hate??

hmm...
i decided to bring up
this matter cuz
i've a feeling that
im being hated by
somebody.
A question has been
in my mind.
Why do people hate?
Is is becuz they're jealous?
Or is it becuz they
don't like that particular person,
in terms of looks? behaviours?
attitude? what else?
Actually, it's not healthy
to hate someone..IT'S NOT.
The more you see that person,
the higher your anger n
frustration gets.
Your heart will ache like hell,
you see,
you'll only be bringing pain
to yourself, u ask for it..
..and as ur hate for someone
increases, your behaviour
and attitude will chnge..
you'll become more evil..
more cunning..
u tend to do anything tt's
possible to satisfy ur heart's desire.
Don't ever think of anything
negative..
When u hate someone, juz let it go..
when will it end?? nobody knows..
only u have the answer..
Think it thru.
I'm writing this post to
evryone who accessed to my blog
to read my posts..
DON'T HATE..
do the right thing.

..my days, they're changing

my days, nowadays,
it's like...
im becoming happy
these days,
i jz duno why..haha
my life only be peaceful
whenever im out of class
cuz i'l not face my enemy
frm then on..
and there's one thing..
erm..whenever im out of cls,
i'll try to look arnd
to see if she's around..
haha...
it's stupid rite?
i can't help it..
what wil happen to me
aft my O level??
Will i do the same???
I'm juz afraid that i can't
do that anymore..
why must I tell her
my feelings this yr??
why din i confess to her
last year?
i just wish i could
slow time
so that I can spend
more time on her..
i'll keep wishing.

..my sacrifice

after all i've been through...
i guess it's worth it..
i've let it all out...
i'm glad about that..
well, it was jz a confession.
i do like her,
i even wana be with her,
it's just...
she's just too happy
with her friends..
i dun tink she needs
anymore happiness..
her friends can give her
those...
if ur happy, i'l be happy fer u.
so,
this year wil be my last yr
with you..
i do not wish to bring this upon,
it's my blog rite??
i can freely write what i feel..
we may not be able to contact
each other again..
i'l free u frm my heart..
haiz...
i'l always love u..
muackk!!!

..someone's fighting a war against me

haiz...
i noe tt someone
is fighting a war
against me...
and i noe tt we've
been together before,
but why???
what did i ever do to u?
in school, i nvr bother u,
i nvr disturb u,
i nvr give a damn abt u..
so why shud u say all those
vulgarities abt me??
why muz u giv a damn abt me??
why u always feel uneasy with
the ppl i become frens with..?
especially gerls..
if u keep saying tt im in luv
with tt gerl frm sec3,
i would have been walking
with her to school by now...
i would have walk her home
aft school..
why must u do this to me???
u noe tt those words reli hurt me..?
ur gonna hunt me down
to the end izit??
juz tell me wad u wanna do to me?
u wana humiliate me in front of the sch?
i'l let u do it...
i'l stand beside on stage n watch e crowd,
as u humiliate me..
i bet tt would make u happy..
haiz...
bad things hav always been
laid down on me...
Is this retribution??
im fortunate,
i met someone whom i cn
share my sorrows with,
tt person is special..
question is,
when wil this war end??
someone has the answer to this,
the one hu started it..who else..
if ur gonna continue hating me,
go ahead..im restless n wordless..
only God has the truth
abt my feelings...
pray tt one day,
you'll get the answers
to all ur questions..
=)

it's all over...

YES!!!
it's finally over..
the pain is finally over..
phew!!
i've been keeping
it inside for
such a long time,
since the first time
i looked at her..
i din hav the guts
back then..
bt i jz happened
to force myself to
confess to her..
and it turned out well.
hehe..i was damn relieved.
bt smth jz proved me wrong..
i thought she doesn't like me.
found out tt she likes me...
why couldn't she tell me earlier??
anyway, now it's all over...
tt's wad im happy about..
=)
YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WOOOHOOO!!!!!!!!