This is the world that i live in. Why am i a such good person inside? I always feel the need to apologize, even though it was not entirely my fault. Why do i even bother to ponder over what happened? Why can't i just let it be? Point is, there has been numerous injustice against me and furthermore, these injustice were done by the ones i care. I always feel the need for peace, not only for me but for everyone. Why can't we just live in a world of smiles and giggles? It is acceptable to me for what they've done to me. But when i just give them a little of what i've got, it's not acceptable to them. And i always feel bad having to reserve a seat for someone. It makes me feel inconsiderate. Imagine in a place that is as crowded as hell, and you were just putting your stuff on the table to reserve it for your friend. It's okay if it'll be for a while, but if it's forever, i'm forever not fuckin' okay with it. Moreover, when your mood is already on the brink of just releasing all the curses you have in your heart after walking round the whole damn place looking for a seat so that i can do my work comfortably, you can just explode anytime. Sometimes, it's hard for me to decide who should apologize. And eventually, i'm always the one to do so. Sigh.