Grad night is on its way. I'm so not looking forward to it, man. I haven't even went for shopping. I haven't even thought of what i should wear. I just don't have the grad night feeling, not now. How? What the hell should i do? I was thinking of buying just a black pants, white collared long-sleeved shirt and just put on my bowtie and the black jacket i used last year. Mmm.

wendy oh wendy, wherever you are.

enrolling is the only way for me to get my life rollin' now

It was really a mere coincidence. I was in bus service 19o on my way home from choa chu kang interchange. Wendy was in the same bus as me and i didn't notice her until i saw a girl wearing a PJC uniform. I was thinking to myself as to who would go to school in the middle of a very long school break. I looked up and it was wendy! She was standing right in front of me with her friend. She noticed me but i quickly looked away. Smart me. Her hair is longer and it really looks nice and cute on her. I managed to hear her voice because she was quite close and so sweet it was. Gosh, how i wish i can see her again.

the most boring thing that you would always encounter when watching a football match is when you were expecting a scoreline but it all turns out to be a draw.

Today's a nightmare for me. I woke up feeling rather weird. My chest felt as though there was something in it, wanting to surface. I wanted to vomit but i couldn't. That was when i thought of the one and only person who could be of the most help, my friend, aifah. She's a nurse so i'm sure she'll be able to help me. And she advised me to drink lots of warm water and i did. I didn't drink lots but only a mug of warm water. I could feel the effects instantaneously. The contents in my body were rushing out and i had to run to the washroom and it all happened. I felt better and lighter, and that there is nothing putting pressure on my body. To add to this, i didn't have the appetite. Even till now, i haven't been eating. I guess i'll eat later. A bad day it was for me.

This is not me, this is a motherfuckin' decoy.

Though berbatov had recently joined the squad, you can really see a change in how the players play in his absence. An example was the match against Aston Villa which had just ended. Passing was horrendous, chances not well taken, especially the one which rooney could have easily smacked that ball through the net which he did not. Fuck him. In conclusion, i think Man Utd played horribly today. You could see that without berbatov, there wasn't any well-anticipated passes and crosses. Man Utd failed to take advantage of the fact that chelsea and liverpool were held back, and arsenal, oh well, had lost.

I just hate to be at home. Trust me, there's no peace. Not that they're fighting, but there's really no peace. I'm very sure i'll be getting a job soon after my class chalet. I can't imagine what will be of me for the next few months.

I aim high, and when i succeed to be on the desired path, i failed in the end. Maybe i aim too high. I have to learn that, to succeed, you gotta start small. Just like doing a business. You've just entered the market and you want to compete with Walmart? Trust me, you're just digging your own grave, mate. Hence, i've learnt that to be a pilot, it'd take me more than just a few years. I gotta start from, perhaps, other vocations below pilot. As time passes by, i would slowly upgrade myself and in time to come, i would sit in that cockpit maneuvering my aircraft. So Suhaimi, be patient alright? This is the world that you live in. Things don't go your way in the short run, but in the long run, when all things are varied, you may realise that things are actually going your way after all.

It's been over 3 years now, has definitely left a hole in my heart. Now who's to close it? I just feel so lonely. I know, i have friends around me so how the heck can i get lonely right? That's not what i meant. I just don't have the person anymore. The person whom i can talk to everyday, share our feelings, one whom i can quarrel with and one whom i could say mushy words to. It may not be necessary at this point of time because all our parents want us to do is study first, love later. I just wanna use up all my 1000 sms'es, texting that special person whom i do not know for now. I'm not feeling bored, but i'm just lonely. Really lonely. I hope, the next person i'll be with, will be my life-long partner and just stop my 'ex' meter. I hope. That's all i can assure.

Sentosa Trip After Last Paper Of A's

I just want to eat at all the fast food restaurants in one single day. Especially in kfc. The smell of the well-bred chicken is just haunting me. I felt as thought they were just right in front of me. But realised i was hallucinating. I want to eat everything but i have to limit myself. School will end soon, very soon. and i'm not sure if i'll still get my allowance after that.

numbcrush

Oh god, i pray to you that all my hard effort preparing for my A levels would eventually produce me the kind of results that i've been longing for. I know that sometimes, shit happens and you don't usually get what you truly want. But at least, i'd be glad if i could get somewhere near my target.

This is what i mean. People just don't understand what and how i feel. The situation has always been complex to me. Imagine it being more complex. When i face a problem, i don't only think of the problem but also the other things that surround it. Ya, you might think i'm too emotional but this is my way of solving problems. This is the only thing you can say about me. Emo emo emo. That's all you can say, right? Fine. At least i don't usually give a damn when you tell me to my face. I'm constantly aware of the many things that occur around me as a result of one's behaviour.

This is the world that i live in. Why am i a such good person inside? I always feel the need to apologize, even though it was not entirely my fault. Why do i even bother to ponder over what happened? Why can't i just let it be? Point is, there has been numerous injustice against me and furthermore, these injustice were done by the ones i care. I always feel the need for peace, not only for me but for everyone. Why can't we just live in a world of smiles and giggles? It is acceptable to me for what they've done to me. But when i just give them a little of what i've got, it's not acceptable to them. And i always feel bad having to reserve a seat for someone. It makes me feel inconsiderate. Imagine in a place that is as crowded as hell, and you were just putting your stuff on the table to reserve it for your friend. It's okay if it'll be for a while, but if it's forever, i'm forever not fuckin' okay with it. Moreover, when your mood is already on the brink of just releasing all the curses you have in your heart after walking round the whole damn place looking for a seat so that i can do my work comfortably, you can just explode anytime. Sometimes, it's hard for me to decide who should apologize. And eventually, i'm always the one to do so. Sigh.

I know there's no hiding from this feeling. I'm sure at this point of time, everyone is feeling scared. This is the disadvantage of being a JC student. You'll be facing the biggest, most significant examination in your whole life. Being a JC student, sets you apart from the other non-JC students. By going into a JC, you have made up your mind that you are aiming for a university. And situation today seems that you must have outstanding grades to be able to get into the course that you want. Hence, by getting none other than A's or B's, it would really get us nowhere. Situation gets bad especially for the guys. We have our NS to accomplish which takes up approx 2 years of our life. A lot can happen in these 2 years. For those of us who do not do well for our A's, within 2 years, we can re-take the A's twice. Sigh. I don't know what's gonna happen. I'm just scared, not just, but REALLY scared. My A' level grades will determine how and what i'll do in the next 2o years. This sucks.

I idolise C.Ronaldo but sometimes or rather all the time, he should be aware that Manchester United is not equal to Cristiano Ronaldo. He, being a winger, should have a mindset of architecturing goals more than seeking one. What I like about Chelsea is that they play as a team, providing each other crosses and passes very well. I'm sure, Man Utd will bloom tremendously. Just trust me. And 4-3 against Hull City was an act of complacency and finishing in the 2nd-half sucked big time.