Sorry for the fake accent. Hehe.

Man, i didn't clear my common test. In other words, i didn't satisfy the criteria: 3 H2 passes or 2 H2 & 1 H1 passes. I only have 2 H2 passes. God, what is happening? My parents would definitely have to come down for the bloody 'interview'. Thing is, i don't know whether it's the HOD or CT or ST. But i have indeed showed some improvements, i admit that. So it seems that i'm on my way to my goal.

My friends invited me for soccer today. They said we were playing in some cage. So i thought we'll be going to kallang but we actually went to east coast: FUTSAL. There were 4 teams including us where most of our opponents were adults. It was a group table 'tournament'. Their body contacts were as if they were playing rugby. We were intimidated just by watching them play. Ali almost wanted to go home. Haha. But we just gotta take this opportunity and gain some experience. Honestly, it was my first time playing on synthetic ground and so, there were a couple of times when we slipped. Besides that, i found it hard to kick in our intended direction. I just don't know why. I used the similar technique which i have been using in school, and it turned out to be useless on synthetic ground. People were pushing very hard and 'ramming' everywhere. But we managed to pull through all the matches. Though we won 1 and lost 2 matches. The scores of matches which we lost were not that far too. And i managed to score 2. Hehe. You can't imagine how hard it is to score even a goal. Everyone was playing very fast, trust me. Once you have the ball in possession, you only have seconds to think of what to do with the ball. Else, you'll be humped. I became tired even before the first match ends. Surprisingly, we managed to clinch the bronze award for being the 3rd on the table. This is something we should be proud of because our team is only made up of teenagers below the age of 20. Nevertheless, it was really an honour to play with those adults. There was sportsmanship. I really look forward to playing with them again.

I promise myself to tell you the truth after it ends

I just miss that sweet voice of yours calling my name. I guess it's my fault for not appreciating you when you were always by my side back then. Perhaps, i can't change that now. Perhaps, i won't be able to hear you call my name again.

I cleared my H2 physics. Yeah!

Today is simply a satisfying day for me. I just got back my physics paper 1 and i got 12/20. Phew. It was really that bad for me but fortunately, i passed and this can help me because if paper 2 i did slightly bad, paper 1 can pull me up. I'm getting back my paper 2 tomorrow and i'm so anxious about it now. I passed math and the murderer subject, econs i didn't. I hope i can pass physics and also my geog because i don't want my parents to waste their time on meeting sessions. It is so troublesome, man. Another satisfying thing also happened today late after school. I managed to master kong vault. It's okay if you don't know what it is but it really felt good being able to master it. Any railing that i could find, i would leap over it with various vaults. Parkour. Oh, it's just a cool art.

I will wait for you, no matter what.

I hate everything !!!

You never treat me as one of your true pals. You always forget our plans for the day. Negligence is the only word i can think of right now. I guess it's true that what others have been saying about life, it's all true. Look at what's present. Don't bother about the people you know in the past.

Do i smell FEAR? What would you have done if those steps and the rail were hot molten rock(lava) and there's nothing you can use as a mean of transporting you to the foot of those steps? The only thing to do is basically run down the wall on the right. Or just jump down those 20 steps. That is what i've been wanting to accomplish. I'm going to jump with skill and precision and objective is to land at the foot of those steps, unhurt, unFEARed, with a feeling of satisfaction and accomplishment. TRACEUR.

I have no idea why i have been missing YFC152. It's the course/class that i was admitted to during my days in youth flying club. Sigh. I really miss the people there, my friends, the admin aunties, my instructors, the planes and simulator room. Why did i have to choose to leave early? I could have convinced my instructor that i was able to move on and that it won't affect my promotional results. I could have flown my first solo. As days pass by, my commitment also fades with time. Also, i've been trying to find a simulation software that suits what i like. Maybe combat? If i can't find any, civilian simulation would do. I also miss speaking on the telecom, like real qualified pilots that is. It was really cool and i could understand the pain of memorizing what you have to say to the people in the tower. I always say i want good grades for my A levels but how long can i say this? I keep procrastinating. Shithole, man. I just want to get admitted to the air force and undergo 2++ years of training in US and australia, or france. I just want to sit in the cockpit again.

I can't get you out of my mind..

March holiday is here. For some people, this may be their time to have fun, to hang out with friends, to play battlefield in the LAN shop, to go jamming, basically to have fun. But for me, the fun that i'm gonna get is limited and is rather redundant. Because most of the time will be spent on revising, studying and discussing with my friends regarding subject issues. Common test is just this coming week but it will only take up 3 days of the week: Monday, tuesday and wednesday. That is so freaking cool, man. And school will then resume the next tuesday. I'm going to take that remaining days to cool myself down and just relax my mind.

Hanging out with my band is really stress-relieving. It somehow makes me free. It also feels great being with them. We can just joke around, being racist for a moment. But that's not our intention, we're just playing around. I guess today was the best jamm i've ever had for this year, probably because it was the first jamm this year. And guess what, i screamed today. It really felt great and i think that it was quite a good and nice scream. I was even being complimented by the hardcore sreamo, haha. I don't think we can jamm like this often this year since A levels is around the corner. But i hope we will be able to go further after A levels. Boycotted rocks on..

I just couldn't believe my eyes when i saw the grade on my result slip. I was really shocked. It was really unpredictable. It's not what i've been expecting. I expected better. Instead of improving, it was the opposite. What the hell happened? Also filled with sadness, i couldn't focus on the things i do after obtaining my result slip. I was really in another world. It was just the worst grade of that subject of my entire school life. Sigh. This is a gauge as to how i will do my common test, mid year, prelims and also the A levels. If I can't even get a good grade for a subject that you don't even need to study that much or memorize long-winded definitions and formulas, how would i be able to get distinctions for the rest of my subjects? I'm absolutely worried right now, even scared. My econs and geog, and GP. Gosh, how will i be able to get these over with. I want to pass everything for common test. I don't wish to fail anymore. I've had enough of feeling down. I want to see grades that make me smile, flashing my teeth. I feel that this is the moment that determines where i'll be and what i am 10 or 20 years later. I want to be what i've been wanting to be. Oh God, please clear all my obstacles away. Grant me a peace of mind.

Here's what I think. There's no way a person can escape from a detention barrack especially if that person poses a big threat to the society and particularly the country. The strongest, fittest and smartest soldiers would be assigned to make sure this person doesn't get out of hands. Okay, if the security is tight, and it's damn tight, how on earth can this guy escape unnoticed? And does anybody know how long did they take to realise that this guy is gone? My family kinda had a discussion about this issue. And my mum felt that it must have been the works of supernatural means like you know, black magic? I'd say i could agree with it. That's because Indon is quite professional in these kind of stuff, and it's not a good thing you know.

Why did he coincidentally escape on the day his family was visiting him? So my mum felt that his family must have brought the 'stuff' from their homeland. This 'stuff' has many purposes and besides that, there are many 'stuffs' in this 'stuff'. One of its uses is when doing business. It sorts of pull customers in and thus, increase their earnings exceptionally. Another use of it is to divert people's attention away and it sort of, creates hallucinations for people such that in this case, this captive doesn't even exist and is invisible to the soldiers. Now, how long does it take for the soldiers to notice that he's gone? If it's within 1 hour, 2 hour or 3 hours, this black magic stuff cannot be applied in this case. Because, this guy would definitely want to be out of the country so badly. So we all assume that he is still here, in s'pore. Why is it that he is still not found? Is he dead out of starvation? or is he still in the woods? Does he have any communication gadgets to contact his disciples or members? If not for this supernatural means, another possibility is relating to the soldiers directly? Bribery by fellow members of that guy? Or maybe one of the soldiers' family has been observed, approached and threatened to be harmed? I don't know. This is just my probabilities? What about you? What do you think?