I thought i have grown stronger.
I can face such hurtful jokes
without even stressing myself.
I was wrong.
i just can't take it anymore.
I'm at a new level now..
i feel that at this level,
it's worse than before.
There are challenges that
await..these challenges can
bring me down anytime.
I would lose if i go beyond
the limits.
It is indeed fun, teasing
people. The outcome is,
you get a sense of satisfaction.
You laugh, other people laugh.
There will be smiley faces around.
But what they do not take note,
is the one that is being teased.
It is hurtful, very hurtful inside.
Nobody can ever imagine that.
That's because they are not the ones
who go through every day in school.
A sensitive one i am..i can't help it.
I've told my friends about is too
strong for me to withstand and what
is not. And this time, it is fuckin
unwithstandable..
I wish i could just blow it out
and the hot ashes and lava would
hit their faces and disfigure them.
But hell no, that is too evil..
and i'm not..i just kept mum.
And you know what? It seems to
be the best solution to this never-
ending problem.
Keeping mum as if i don't care.
Answers to questions are monotonous.
Eventually, they will stop bothering,
for a while that is.
Now i'm in a new environment which
is yet to completely adapt.
I wonder, should i value this friendship?
Do they value friendship?
Do they know what a friend should
and should not do?
Just think of it for a sec alright?