encourage lah..

There is one thing about my
current institution that i'm
pissed off with.. damn..
My inst doesn't encourage
students to join SYFC
mainly because flights will
clash with lessons and this
might affect the student's
performance in their studies.
This is true..i agree..
But it's up to the students to
join that club..because this
is what they want..
Take me for example,
i join syfc because i want to
be a pilot..
either a fighter or commercial.
It is for my future..my dream.
The inst has no damn right to
stop us from reaching our dreams.
The VP told me just now,
"I don't give a damn of how much
you pay for the flying lesson. You
have to follow my rules."
That truly sucks lah..
Of course he could say that because
he isn't the one taking the lesson.
It's not his ambition anyway, it's mine.
I don't give a damn too..
And don't think that i can't cope
with my studies..
let me explain for my results.
I just need some time to adapt
to the new system..and subjects too.
It will take time for me to climb
up the ladder that keeps
shortening in length.. and also,
i need someone to at least motivate
and encourage me to do better.
Not discourage me and make me
lose hope..damn ass..
I like my CT..she's the best.
She understands me the best.
I had a talk with her and she said
she's very concerned for me
judging by my current results.
She said she can't stop what i'm doing
cause this is my dream..to be pilot.
She encouraged me a lot..
She told me firmly that she would
wanna see me in J2 next year.
And i told her.."I WILL!!!"
that's the kind of motivation i want.
I'm grateful my friends are there for me.
My greatest concern would be,
i'm afraid i might not be able
to advance to phase 2.
I need more confidence man.
That is how the instructors determine
whether we ought to go to phase 2.
I need to get all the checks right..
I must be confident..
At the same time, i must buck up
in my academics.
There is utterly no use having a PPL
with a low academic history.
I'm eyeing for the SAF scholarship.
I'm going to be the first known malay pilot.
No matter how steep the slope is.