missin' you..

It's been a few months
since i last saw her.
I hardly see her now.
I just dunno, whether
she's running away frm me
or is it otherwise..
I've been separated from
her for too long a time.
I dunno if i'm still in her heart.
I can't bear being teased
by my friends but i just
tolerated cuz i din wana
ruin my friendships with them.
But hearing her name, her
face projected right in front
of me.
And all the sweet memories
we had together flashed
back vividly.
i've been sick these few days.
But i din wana express it to
my fellow frens cuz they
will feel bad abt it.
There are a thousand adjectives
of sorrows and pain in my smiles.
Imagine if she were to say that
she wants us to go our
separate ways.
I wonder what will my reactions be.
She's riveted in my heart.
It's so hard to remove it.
It's gonna take alot of
pain and sufferings.
I wana live my life with her.
But sometimes i've been thinking
if it is possible.
She just doesn't know if
i'm true to her.
She still doesn't realise it
after all i've done for her.
She thinks i'm just lusting.
Frankly, i'm not.
I've been serious all along
about this.
It took me a long time to
reach your heart.
I eliminated all the obstructions.
And finally, i reached my
destination.
I was so relieved when i
successfully confessed my
love to u.
And you made very happy
by replying the same.
That was the happiest
moments in my life...
Do you ever notice that
my life has cheered up,
my life has become brighter
with you by my side.
I didn't have the courage to
express it when i'm with you,
side by side.
Ever since the terrible thing
happened, my happiness was
snatched away.
I assume yours were snatched
away too rite?
I, myself didn't believe that
i've hurt u.
I didn't expect your friends
to tell you everything i told
them and i don't accuse them
of that.
(Sigh...)
You understand me the most.
Please don't tell me now you don't.