missin' you..

It's been a few months
since i last saw her.
I hardly see her now.
I just dunno, whether
she's running away frm me
or is it otherwise..
I've been separated from
her for too long a time.
I dunno if i'm still in her heart.
I can't bear being teased
by my friends but i just
tolerated cuz i din wana
ruin my friendships with them.
But hearing her name, her
face projected right in front
of me.
And all the sweet memories
we had together flashed
back vividly.
i've been sick these few days.
But i din wana express it to
my fellow frens cuz they
will feel bad abt it.
There are a thousand adjectives
of sorrows and pain in my smiles.
Imagine if she were to say that
she wants us to go our
separate ways.
I wonder what will my reactions be.
She's riveted in my heart.
It's so hard to remove it.
It's gonna take alot of
pain and sufferings.
I wana live my life with her.
But sometimes i've been thinking
if it is possible.
She just doesn't know if
i'm true to her.
She still doesn't realise it
after all i've done for her.
She thinks i'm just lusting.
Frankly, i'm not.
I've been serious all along
about this.
It took me a long time to
reach your heart.
I eliminated all the obstructions.
And finally, i reached my
destination.
I was so relieved when i
successfully confessed my
love to u.
And you made very happy
by replying the same.
That was the happiest
moments in my life...
Do you ever notice that
my life has cheered up,
my life has become brighter
with you by my side.
I didn't have the courage to
express it when i'm with you,
side by side.
Ever since the terrible thing
happened, my happiness was
snatched away.
I assume yours were snatched
away too rite?
I, myself didn't believe that
i've hurt u.
I didn't expect your friends
to tell you everything i told
them and i don't accuse them
of that.
(Sigh...)
You understand me the most.
Please don't tell me now you don't.

fading to nothing..

i'm not trying to
be crappy or
pessimists or paranoid
here..but based on
what i've gone thru,
soon after, we'll be
nothing to each other.
Question is, are u going
to accept that fact?
What are going to
do about it?
Just let it be?
The answers are all
in your heart..
It has always been u
in my mind n in my heart.
I don't wish to change that
unnecessarily.
But what about u?
What's in ur mind and heart?

disappointed..

I couldn't believe it..
When i asked u, sarcastically,
"What do u think is happening
in our relationship?"
And you said, "Erm..nth."
I mean, how could you say that?
It's so obvious that we din
get to interact with each other
often.
And you gave me an ans
as though you didn't care.
I'm ultimately disappointed,
not with you, but myself.
Cuz i didn't shower you with
enough love, perhaps.
As days pass by, my sufferings
become unbearable.
No one knows abt this, more than
i do.
That's why people think that i'm
not having problems cuz
i din express it in my
facial expression.
But this is where i express it,
all of them.
I'm reli suffering..i need someone
who could end this.
And the person who WILL end it,
is the person who caused it.
I'm not accusing u that u
started all this.
Only YOU can make me feel happy
once again..only you.
Only You can bring back the warmth
that has long been gone.
Please, i'm begging you...

why must u do this to me..

I'm reli hurt to know
that we actually had
alot of chance to meet
and talk things out.
U gave ur excuses.
U ignored me,
u avoid me...
Izit bcuz u already have
someone else? whom you'll
be most happy with.
If u do, i'll be very happy
for u but the pain will
take yrs to kill it.
Why must u do this to me?
Without reasons...
I did whatever i could to be
in contact with u.
But u just pretend as if
nothing happens.
This question is for u..
do u still wana continue
this relationship of ours?
Give me your ans the moment
u read this post.
Don't keep me waiting, cuz
it would reli make me damn angry,
aft everything you've done..!!

PORTUGAL WON !!!

My favourite team in
the world cup is
Portugal.
I've been supporting
Portugal since
Christiano Ronaldo
joined Man United and
has been playing in the
1st 11 for Portugal.
Last nite, Portugal
compete with England
to go to the semi-finals.
It's was 0 - 0 in the
90mins. And it was still
0 - 0 in the extra time.
I was really afraid tt
England might score.
But i was relieved when
it wasn't successful.
The penalty kick-out
was the one which
made me nervous.
I even perspired when
2 of Portugal's
players missed the penalty.
But Ricardo, their keeper
really saved the day.
He managed to save 3/4
of England's Penalty shots.
When it was time C.Ronaldo
to kick, I was praying
so hard tt he will score.
I knew that he's an
experienced player who
has nvr missed his penalty
kicks.
And YES!!! HE SCORED.
PORTUGAL MANAGED TO GO TO
THE SEMI-FINALS.
I was so happy, man...
I kept smiling..keke.

some feet exercise..

Yesterday, i played soccer
at the hall in front of
ali's block.
I'm supposedly asked to
come at 9 but i woke up
late but i din reli mind.
Coincidentally, my parents
were going to the market
at bukit batok.
So they gave me a ride.
As i reached, my frens saw
me and asked me to join them
cuz they're short of
one player.
'THEM' refers to Ali,
Farid, Chan.
We had to reform the team
cuz i just came.
Altogether, there were
4 teams of four.
My team won Alvin's team
and we will meet the other
team in Finals..Hehe.
Then Ali's team won
Farid's team.
We met Ali's team in the
Finals.
Farid's team and Alvin's
had to fight for the
3rd n 4th placing.
It was a tough match
but Farid's team was
uneasily defeated.
Our match started very
tensely. Haha.
It was as though we're
playing in a real
tournament.
We were panicking..
it was so fun, man...
At first, my team was leading.
I scored the first goal,
with a volley using my
left leg. Second was my teammate,
YaoJie who kicked an incoming ball
really hard and it went in.
Ali's team then equalised
due to some mistakes made by
our unexperienced goalkeeper.
It was 2 - 2.
The atmosphere was different.
Everyone was desperate to
score a goal to determine
the champion.
Our opponent found some
space and kicked the ball
right in between of my
keeper's legs.
I couldn't believe it.
I fell to my knees.
Thats the end of the tournament.
We lost..
I was pretty upset and angry
cuz my keeper made stupid mistakes.
But i calmed down mins later.
We played for abt 5hrs,
non-stop.
I could hardly walk cuz my
legs were painful.
I was tired, very tired.
I reached home and i had
a headache.
I recovered hours later.
I reli had fun playing soccer
there.

it's painful in here..

It's really painful here
in my heart, without her
by my side.
I didn't get the chance to
contact her.
I've been thinking of her
always..i can't help it.
It has been affecting my
studies. I can't pay 100%
attention to what the teacher
is teaching.
My mind would wonder elsewhere.
Can somebody help me?
Only her friends can help me.
Whenever i'm lonely,
i would think of her.
Even if i'm with my friends,
i'll think of her..
The reason i find love is
because i feel lonely.
Now, i feel more lonely
than ever..it's hurting me.
Sometimes it's bearable,
sometimes it's not.
What should i do?
Can a kind soul help me?
I'm having too many problems.
I love her so much..
but what happened, has
gone too far for me to
chase and catch it.