level 1..accomplished

hmm...common tests,
it's over..
it's left with MT mock
exam..which is next friday.
Wish me luck..
I just need to buck-up my
chemistry..esp balancing eqns.
i feel that to know how to
balance equations,
is the heart of it.
Once u noe it well,
everything would be simple
for u to get As..
I'm just so happy that
i dun have any burden
anymore..i mean,
tests..
Anyway, i reli had a moody day
today.. i headed for pending
lrt station early..but then,
there was some major problem
with the bloody train.
I waited for almost 15mins..
By then, the platform was full
of commuters..
and the train was crowded..
i can hardly do my morning
exercise, man..
As i read my watch, (actually
i din have my watch at that time)
it was 0715h.
I rushed to school..hoping
that she's hopelessly waiting
for me under the hut.
It's totally my fault.
I should have followed my instincts.
to wajihah,
IM TERRIBLY SORRY!!!
I RELI MADE A FOOL OF U..
PLEASE FORGIVE ME..

damn pissed off, man..

*sigh*...
she's been going thru
pain all these while..
she's still a prey
to many students in sch.
But WHY?
Im sure she wun do such
things to hurt her
predators' feelings..
I noe her well and she's
not that kind of person..
What is it that those
bastards or bitches
want frm her??
Actually, i pity her..
She is already having
a hard time coping
with her personal
problems at home.
and now, she has to
cope with things in
school, how stupid..
Haiz...some ppl
just dunno when to
stop their nonsense.
Whatever it is, i'll
always support u
in fighting this "war".
approach me for
any help, im willing...

-to dearest wajihah..

inconsistent subject grades..

im darn happy to
find out that my math
grade improved drastically.
from C6 to B4 to A2..
was it just LUCK???
or my all-time hard effort??
anyway, what matters is
i improved.. =)
here comes the worse part..
MY CHEMISTRY GRADES..
they FLOPPED..
arrgghh!!!!
i failed for the recent test..
29 out of 60..
i was so devastated, man.
all those equations,
elements, etc..
is driving me into insanity..
i dun care, i must
get it over with..
i must revise this subj
all over again, from level 1..
malay GCE O' level is around
the corner..
29May i guess.
mdm hasnah has been giving
us wkshts. So far i did
reasonably well but i need to
improve on it too..
What made my grades good,
is that IM HAPPY.
I dunno why, but i guess
it's the reason.
She makes me happy,
but sometimes sad too..
and not to mention,
angry and upset as well.
haha..but those are
actually happiness behind
each and every one of them,
and im so happy to have met her.
i feel blessed, i must say..
I LOVE U SOOOO MUCH.

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sigh...
questions seem to
flow freely in my
mind like air.
Questions that are
the reason i cant
pay full attention
to my studies.
Why, man? Why?
There are just too
many of them in
my 512MB head.
I dun believe in
monkey love, or
whatever they call it.
I take matters like this
seriously..
i dun treat ladies like
bunch of handphones.
No, i dun.
I dun dump as soon as
i got a new one.
No, i dun.
I made a very big
mistake once..
a promise that i've
treated it as nothing.
I din fulfil the promise.
now, i feel guilty..
i just dunno why.
and not to mention,
I MADE THAT PROMISE..
and i din go by it???
*sigh...*
I suffered from depression
when she said that
sentence to me..
i was filled with guilt.
Now, someone has re-opened
up my heart..
but what's weird is,
the same thing happened.
It was love at first sight.
I confessed evrything to
her.. but it really took
me long to actually have
the guts to do so..
However, i din go into
a relationship for
im not ready for one.
But, im actually treating
her as if we're couple..
isn't that similar to going
into a relationship???
What's my decision, anyway?
Me, myself and I don't noe.
Whatever it is, i dun
wish to hurt another heart,
never...

moodless jam'..

i went jamming today
at alvron which is at
bukit timah..
i din wanna go but
my fren insisted on
paying for me so
i went.
I set off at 4+ to meet
my fren..
He said that a few
girls frm his class,
jingyi, yewting and alicia,
wanted to come along
So we waited for them
for a while..
When we reached there,
we played only a few
songs.
We din have full force
cuz we're missing one
player..(farid)
Most of the songs were
not played very well..=(
Our drummer(angelo)
came late cuz he had
church stuff..
He came a few mins
before the jammin ended.
We planned to book
again but we had no choice
but to book at 8pm..
We ate at al-ameen while
waiting for time.
It's already 8pm so
we payed the bill and
went in.
The girls took our pics.
We thought of having
them as our groupees..
hehe...
We had fun and sad at
the same time too..
cuz we din manage to
make the girls enjoy..
we reli suck today...
an apology to the girl
was made by me.
haiz...the rest intended
to jam again tmr..(sat)
but ali cant come cuz he
has to help with his
relative's marriage..
angelo said he'll try
cuz he's afraid that
his parents may not
allow him, he has been
going out since, which we
are not aware.
Me? Hmm..
im nt so sure too..
im down with flu
which has been annoying
me. I couldn't play
well cuz of my flu..
about tmr, im afraid
i have to see my mood..
i can't afford to go out
2 days in a row..and
for u info,
i came hm at 10pm
today..and that's late.
my parents would surely
be angry with me, man..
anyway, gotta go now..
i really miss her like crazy.
Din get to chat with her
that much.. *sigh*.

The best and worst night class...

i went for night class today..
but i went home first
before going for night class.
I reached school at 6pm.
It was creepy,
so quiet..there was hardly
any noise..
I sat down to do my
maths revision..
few mins later, my frens arrived.
we studied for 2hrs,
listening to mp3.
drinking hot milo..
the milo was yummy..
it drove my fren to addiction..
haha..
2030h, we packed our things
to go home..
we walked home just for fun.
When we reached zhenghua sec,
decided to run..
surprisingly, i wasn't tired..
after running frm zhenghua to
segar lrt station..
but along the way, i was
racing with my fren,
hu was riding a bike..
I was in front of him,
when suddenly, i heard
a loud thud..
I turned back, and saw my fren
on the ground..
I was so worried, man..
i ran to him to see if he's ok,
i searched thoroughly all over him
to detect bruises.. but he sustained
minor ones.. he told me tt the bike
almost came into contact with my leg,
i could have tripped and fell,
head first..
it could have been fatal...
instead of thrusting forward,
he braked, because he was cycling
at a high velocity, the inertia
was high too..
When he braked, the bike
tumbled over..360 degrees.
His butt hit the ground first,
lucky not his head..
phew..thank God.
When i saw his condition,
it reli scared me off my ass..
haiz...

*missin' u...*

I have been leading a
torturous life these
few days..
i din have the medicine
for my sickness.
perhaps i have to wait
long to retrieve it.
I'm totally dependant
on that person to cure me.
He has to get that thing
for me..if nt,
it will get worse..
ARGHH!!!
SOMEBODY SAVE ME!!!
Someday i can't control
my addiction and...
i duno what i'll do.
haiz..actually,
the 'medicine' is a handphone
which is not faulty, as long as
it can be used.
im sick, cuz i've nt been smsing
her for the past few days..
though we're in the same sch,
but i still dn get the chance
to meet her or even talk to her.
"So near yet so far.."
I miss u, gerl..
I miss u a lot.
the person hu can get me
what i want, is none other
than my father...
please dad, get me a new
phone, perhaps a usable
one..it doesn't need to be
brand new..

flu...SHOOO!!!!

I wasn't feeling very well
today..actually, i've been
unwell since last night.
My sister, beat me up with
pillows..perhaps i must have
breathed in the dirty dust
tt's on the pillows.
We were fighting duno for what,
then she threw all the pillows
in the living room at me.
One moment later, i sneezed..
Oh god, that signalled that
im gonna have a flu.
Bloody Hell!!!
I was searching desperately
for tissues.
I was like a drug addict,
foraging the cupboards,
wardrobes, etc..
just to find tissue.
lucky my mum kept some.
It was actually for her own
usage, but she pitied me
so she gave it to me.

Today, i went to school..
i was quite ok but during
DnT lesson, due the
presence of dust,
cuz im in a dnt room,
DUST AGAIN???!!!
that colourless,
slimy liquid,
*i dunno what it's called*
kept oozing out frm
my nose..damn irritating.
I din absorb much for
today's lessons..
probably 10%-20% only..
i had to concentrate on
getting rid of tt slimy liquid.
HAHA!!!
I was so damn relieved
when i reached home.
I quickly ate panadol,
and im feeling better!!..
than ever..
=)