I have to blog about this. I'm really pissed off with myself. I just lack the courage. She took the same bus as me when i was going home just now. She found a seat and there was an empty seat beside her and it happened that i was moving towards that seat. I just couldn't pluck up the courage to sit rest my ass on that seat right next to her. My heart was already beating superbly fast when i was walking pass her in the bus. Imagine if i would have grabbed that seat, i bet my chest would burst due to the high-amplitude oscillation underneath. It was a chance, which obviously i should have taken. There was no other reason why i could not take that f-ing chance. I'm just a coward son of a gun. Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!