I received a double blow today. First of all, i've disappointed my parents. They came for a meeting with my teacher today, and everything was one hell of a screw up. Tried my very best to hide the emo feeling from my friends to avoid any unnecessary commotion. I've never shed a single tear until today. I thought i was the saddest man on the planet right now. Then, i reached home and received a letter from air force. I won't receive the letter if i'm accepted of the post. So you get what i mean. Like i mentioned in my previous posts, journey to my dream always end in the middle of the path and it just did. I just can't think of any alternative right now. I've never thought of any before. I've disappointed my parents, and my friends who gave me incessant support and encouragement to become a pilot, and not to forget, i've disappointed myself totally. Now, i have every fuckin' reason to be emo. I guess it's time for me to remove the badge. I'm terribly sorry i've let all of you down.