I'm beginning to really fall in love with this girl. It all started from a mere crush which i feel is stupid. She's the talk of the town. How can she ever be my girlfriend? The more lonely I've become, the more desperate i become. Haha. When i say desperate, it doesn't mean Really-A-Despo. She's of course, very beautiful and admirable, adorable too. At first, i thought she ain't gonna be friendly. But it turned out that she actually IS friendly. Whenever i chat with her online, i will feel happy, like never before. It's been a long time since i last had this emotion. Sometimes i wonder when will this speckle of happiness come. I've been longing and YEARNING for it. I definitely can't make it come, so i might just have to wait. I'm furious at myself. Why do I get to know her and make friends with her only now?; when school is nearing end(in fact, it already ended). Furthermore, i don't even know if i'll be leveling up or remain at the same level. I doubt she will remain. So my only hope is to get promoted. I didn't meet the promotional criteria i guess, but i hope this time, they'll do it by ranks and i sincerely hope that i'm not at the bottom 300 or 400 of the whole cohort, 1000. My last words for today, It would be GREAT if you could be mine. Even if it seems impossible, i'm sure it can be made POSSIBLE.

JC1 ends..

Today was the last day we will be in the classroom together as a class. Today marked the end of JC1. However, the day when we will know whether we'll be going separate ways is not today. We are going to enjoy and let the devil out of us free for a while and as 9 Nov approaches, it is time. Embrace yourself, young minds. For that day will determine your fates. Wah, i sound awkward. Haha. Anyway, i didn't take many photos on my phone today. I did take 1 or 2.

This photo irks me. Haha. This allen wanted to act g@y but since it's the last day, i just played along. And that marcus, always a pain in the ass. =D

..throwing oil to the fire

I'm already feeling down about my performance. I really want to be promoted. No matter what it takes. Even if I had to go for probation, i'll be willing to. If anything goes wrong during my journey to achieving my dreams, i'll feel like killing myself. My dreams are everything to me. I have to get them. There is no exception. Now, there is another thing that makes or rather made me more upset. It's about my ex. I guess she's attached now. I don't know how to describe the feeling that i have for. It's between 'special friend' and 'just a friend'. I used to be hyper and joyous when i sms her last time. But now, i'm not anymore. I guess it's not pleasant to sms with a person who already belongs to another. I have many eye-candies in school. If i could, i would get one of them to be my girlfriend(if they accept), but i just didn't want to. For what reasons, they are unclear. But i wish to salute her, coz she managed to push through all the obstacles and got herself out of the maze. I'm really happy for her and also, I hope you'll be happy with him. =)

i just need one more chance..

I was leniently given a chance. A chance to prove myself worthy of proceeding to the next level. I know I did everything i could to get what i want, what i really want. Grabbing this chance would mean almost everything in my life. I failed to grab this opportunity. My intention was never to break my own record. I still never ponder about what my next step would be, cause I still have some faith in myself. Though it deceived me, once. I'm gonna take this damn risk. I'm gonna give it one more try. Please God, just give me one more chance. I don't wish to fail this mission. I hope He grants me this important prayer of mine. I really plead upon You.

..think i have what i want already

This is just a random picture i took with Weicheng and Weihan today during the PW workshop. It was as if it was our last days.

This is a picture of four of the most talented and gifted football players in S29. Cool eh? Haha. I was just kidding. In fact, we play soccer well. As in, our combination is really effective. We are called 'Imba' which was named by our Chairman of the team, Weihan. Hehe. Anyway, today i just added an additional RAM into my notebook. I thought i could change/improve the graphics of my notebook but i actually can't. There's no way i can change what's on the motherboard. But i think i have what i want already. An additional RAM and since i can't buy a new graphics card, i cancelled it out of the list. You know, i met my classmate when i was near the entrance of lot 1. I think she looks better now. Erm..kinda hot. A pity i just said 'hi', smiled as if i haven't seen her for a long time which in fact, is true, and then just continued walking. It was so stupid of me. We could have grab a table in Mac, buy a drink and have a nice conversation. Haha. Everything seems to have changed. The relief part is, i've just made a new ezlink card. It's one of the things under my 'essential' list. Without it, i can't go anywhere, man. But one thing is, the lady didn't align my photo properly and it looked kinda 'senget'. She treats me nicely though. =)

Sad thing.

Hi guys, i just returned from a memorable trip with my fellow secondary school friends and a very deary pal, Angelo. His family moved to Dubai for some reasons that we ought not to know. We understand that. Perhaps it might upset him or his family members if we were to ask. He was on his journey back to his homeland, Philippines where he will continue his education. But along the way, he dropped by Singapore to visit us and probably spend some time with us. It was really nice to see him again. But it's sad he could only be with us for less than half a day. It's really a long journey though we spent only about 5 hours with him. Here are the pictures i took. There's more but we have to wait for Kelvin to create an online photo album and then i'll post em' here.