I just went for the medical today. Many people expected me to get PES A. But guess what, I got PES B. You know why? Simply because "i give you PES B, because you're a bit skinny", said the doctor-in-charge. I was like, what the hell!? I was doing perfectly fine for the other medical stations and just because of one factor that could be changed over time, i was given PES B? Well, you see, this weight issue can be solved over time. That's because, it's already in our genes. Just like my father, he was underweight when he was at my age. But the moment he reach the 20s or 30s, his weight totally blasted up to an extent that it's within the acceptable weight range. Maybe that's what i'm going to encounter in the future. I can't be given PES B just because i'm underweight. I assure you that i'm able to perform any combat operations and weight is not an issue here. I'm not saying that i'm very capable of doing everything, neither am i self-praising. I consulted my friend and he said that we can request for a change of PES status which i'm not so certain about. God!!! I realise that your PES status is only determined by the doctor in the 2nd last station of the whole medical assessment. So no matter how well you perform in the other medical stations, it's up to that particular person.

I was invited to play street soccer with my fellow secondary friends tonight. It felt really great because it was a reunion and i was glad upon seeing them. The moment i stepped into the court, it was already time for us to leave the court simply because someone else had booked the court. We then decided to make our way to the street soccer court in Pending. We expected to see some 'ah-bengs' there and we were right. And it seemed that it was fun playing with them after all. Despite the strong body contacts made, i managed to get into their game and boost up my body for contacts with them. I think playing with them would be of a great value to me. However, what i'm displeased with was my unsatisfying performance. I just couldn't do anything whenever i have the ball in possession, and i lost some of it too. Maybe because it's been a long time since i last played within a restricted compound with walls surrounding. Anyway, glad to see you guys again.

CONGRATS TO MAN UNITED FOR CLINCHING THE 10TH PREMIERSHIP TITLE

Damn..i'm damn broke this week. Have been using a lot of cash. Class tee, math olympiad registration, new canvas shoe, class fund, debt. And in the end, i have almost no cash for my food and drinks for the next 2 days. I'm sure i'm gonna starve which i'm certain i can't hold on that long. Sure i have to borrow money again. I can't ask from my parents already because they have given me the money meant for class fund. So i don't wish to disturb them already. Sigh. Now, there's only one last thing to get. A new bag. I just wanna find a rather cheap, durable and desirable bag for myself and i guess i've found one. Maybe i'll buy it next week or the week after. I'm starting to feel like a girl: SHOPPING. I gotta refrain myself from abusing cash and instead save it for future use. Okay, after getting my bag, i'll not spend SO MUCH on unnecessary stuffs.

I'm uncertain whether she's still mad at me. Well, i can say i did my part to at least initiate an apology. It's up to her to accept it. Even though she doesn't accept it, it's okay. It doesn't even matter anyway. We're both people of different worlds. What happens at that vicinity doesn't affect anything here. Anyway, just cheer up.

Don't worry people, the upcoming contenders won't be that easy for them. Keep boosting that hope and stay optimistic.

The moment i enter the vicinity, i would feast my eyes on you. For you give me the fuel to to keep my wheels goin'.

bla..bla..bla.. After suntec city, we decided to visit the nearby memorial of those deceased during the japanese occupation. And took pictures that depict the CBD.

I was staring blankly into space. This time, i didn't intend to look for her. All of a sudden, she walks by. Cutting through the normal of my eye's projection. She was like wanted me to look. Thus i looked at her. And she smiled. And i gave her one too. =)

I've have been granted a reprieve. So do my friends.

Sorry for the fake accent. Hehe.

Man, i didn't clear my common test. In other words, i didn't satisfy the criteria: 3 H2 passes or 2 H2 & 1 H1 passes. I only have 2 H2 passes. God, what is happening? My parents would definitely have to come down for the bloody 'interview'. Thing is, i don't know whether it's the HOD or CT or ST. But i have indeed showed some improvements, i admit that. So it seems that i'm on my way to my goal.

My friends invited me for soccer today. They said we were playing in some cage. So i thought we'll be going to kallang but we actually went to east coast: FUTSAL. There were 4 teams including us where most of our opponents were adults. It was a group table 'tournament'. Their body contacts were as if they were playing rugby. We were intimidated just by watching them play. Ali almost wanted to go home. Haha. But we just gotta take this opportunity and gain some experience. Honestly, it was my first time playing on synthetic ground and so, there were a couple of times when we slipped. Besides that, i found it hard to kick in our intended direction. I just don't know why. I used the similar technique which i have been using in school, and it turned out to be useless on synthetic ground. People were pushing very hard and 'ramming' everywhere. But we managed to pull through all the matches. Though we won 1 and lost 2 matches. The scores of matches which we lost were not that far too. And i managed to score 2. Hehe. You can't imagine how hard it is to score even a goal. Everyone was playing very fast, trust me. Once you have the ball in possession, you only have seconds to think of what to do with the ball. Else, you'll be humped. I became tired even before the first match ends. Surprisingly, we managed to clinch the bronze award for being the 3rd on the table. This is something we should be proud of because our team is only made up of teenagers below the age of 20. Nevertheless, it was really an honour to play with those adults. There was sportsmanship. I really look forward to playing with them again.

I promise myself to tell you the truth after it ends

I just miss that sweet voice of yours calling my name. I guess it's my fault for not appreciating you when you were always by my side back then. Perhaps, i can't change that now. Perhaps, i won't be able to hear you call my name again.

I cleared my H2 physics. Yeah!

Today is simply a satisfying day for me. I just got back my physics paper 1 and i got 12/20. Phew. It was really that bad for me but fortunately, i passed and this can help me because if paper 2 i did slightly bad, paper 1 can pull me up. I'm getting back my paper 2 tomorrow and i'm so anxious about it now. I passed math and the murderer subject, econs i didn't. I hope i can pass physics and also my geog because i don't want my parents to waste their time on meeting sessions. It is so troublesome, man. Another satisfying thing also happened today late after school. I managed to master kong vault. It's okay if you don't know what it is but it really felt good being able to master it. Any railing that i could find, i would leap over it with various vaults. Parkour. Oh, it's just a cool art.

I will wait for you, no matter what.

I hate everything !!!