The key to success to beat your own records and make sure keep beating them. This means to say that you should compete with your ownself, your own grades, and make sure for every test or examination, you'll get higher than your previous grade. It does not stop here, you should consistently beat your new records until you arrive at a point of time when you realize that you have subconsciously overtaken the rest. That is when you would feel the endless satisfaction you've never felt before in your whole life.

I'm starting to feel a twitch of confidence. I know it has never gone back on me. I can do it.

Nothing felt worse than being fucked up. I don't feel okay today. Something was just wrong. I'm emotionally unstable, i can't control my emotions from being leaked out. It felt as if i was perturbed over something but, what the fuck is it? Furthermore, today was really fucked. It all started during my break, i was dealt with a hard blow. Then in class, i uncontrollably screamed out each and every bit of my feelings with just 2 words: fuck off!!! Besides that, i was even being sounded by the GP **tch, for not attending the fuckin' night class, when i already opted for a change. I already told you that i wanted to change, and i don't recall you fuckin' tell me to seek her approval about it when she already told me to seek yours. Just what the fuck is this? And do you think being emo is something which is called for? Do you think that if you can be emo whenever you feel like? Let me tell you something. You're fucked up. There is a lot more than just being quiet and keeping to yourself. That's that.

The Dream

I just woke up from my sleep a few minutes ago and i've decided to post this. When i woke up, i realized that my eyes were wet, as if i had been crying. So here's what happened. I was in a strange place. I could see a wide field, full of small kids and some adults. And the small kids were practising with their bow and arrow? It's kinda random so i can't link them. Then everybody started running so i followed suit. While i was running, a kid beside me asked if the tree is firm. I was speechless for a moment(who wouldn't be) and then i told him the answer about how the tree is firm due to the deep roots. And then, i have no idea how, the kid told an older person(seems like my dad) that i was looking for someone, my ex-girlfriend. I was like, 'HUH! I didn't say that.' Soon, i arrived at some sort of a village, i could see cottages. I came across one, looked at my reflection through the window of one of the cottages and suddenly an old lady came out: my grandmother. She asked why i'm feeling sad and down. Of course, i said i wasn't. But she somehow knew that i have been feeling sad and she invited me in. I sat down and started crying. '????'. So i was crying about my mum? She has been sick and on bed for quite a while. I haven't been taking good care of her. My grandmother consoled me and poof! I was awake. And had tears in my eyes, some were dripping down my cheeks. So, i was crying both in my dreams and also in the real world?

A cute encounter
I was with jingyi at the mac at CWP. There was a lil girl of age between 2 to 4 beside us. I had nothing to do so i decided to blink and smile at the girl. I expected her to look away but instead, she mimicked me. The same actions. I thought it was only a random thing by her. So i told jingyi and showed her. She mimicked again. The thing is, she was damn smart. Very very, too smart. And furthermore, when her mum was far away from her, instead of shouting 'Mummy!', she called her mum by making the whistling sound that guys typically do to attract girls: wee-weet. Haha. I was laughing all the way(silently). I reckon she would be a very smart and intelligent girl when she grows up. =)

Jingyi is just an extraordinary girl. I still can't believe i keep losing when it comes to eating ie. finishing meal in the least possible time. Haha. No offence uh.

I despise the fact that i have to put on a mask before i lift my feet across the doorstep.

Some people say, you will undergo failure to succeed. I wonder if this is even applicable in my case.