How can this happen to me? I just feel like saying the word FUCK!! for at the end of most of my sentences. I was in badminton during PAE and i quit because i wanted to try other CCAs. When JAE started, i was thinking of joining badminton again. I went for the fucking trials in school yesterday. I went through the first trial. And for the second trial, i think i did great. At least 98% of my shots landed on the destination i wanted. Last section was serving. All my serve were successful especially my short serve. Then, the fucking moronic guy said, 'Thank You'. My fucking foot!!! Even my friends were damn shocked when I told them I didn't make it. I'm not being boastful but confidently speaking, I have what it takes to be a badminton player..I have the basic necessities of being one. One last words..TO HELL YOU FUCKING MORONIC PATHETIC IDIOTIC PIONEER JC BADMINTON TEAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.. Gosh, this really eases me. I was hoping to get into badminton as a backup, in case I'm not accepted into SYFC. Now my only hope is..to get into SYFC. I can just pray that i'll be accepted. I don't know what's left to do i don't get SYFC.

Why is it that everytime I'm in the midst of forgetting someone or something..unpredictable things happen. Is this what you call fate or destiny or whatever you call that. Talking about a particular girl here. We do have a history but not a long one. I can't even glare at her name cuz i would definitely think of her which will affect the process of me forgetting her. What happened was, someone called my hp yesterday and i was away. When i took my hp realised that the caller was actually someone whom I never expect to call. It was her. It really was strange. She would have deleted my number by now. At night, i sms her asking whether she called me. Surprisingly, she replied. It was surprising because she didn't reply all my messages in the past. Yesterday, she just did. On second thoughts, it couldn't be her. Why would she? It could be her siblings or even parents. I guess i'm quite satisfied now, cuz she finally replied to my message after such a long time. I'm at ease now. =)

Yesterday, there was 4C bbq. Hailiang invited me over but i felt reluctant man, cuz it was some other class's reunion. On the other hand, i wanted to go..haha..I brought along one of my pals, sooraj. Reached there, i thought me and sooraj were the only 4A there but, there were others who were non-4C people. It was a 4C reunion and at the same time, FFC reunion. Haha. Let me tell you, i was the one who did the bbq-ing. It's just fun to bbq, play with fire, butter, honey.. The chicken wings, sausage, prawns..were irresistable. The chicken wings were perfectly marinated. I've always liked 4C bbq cuz they are experts in these stuff. The food turned out to be damn yummy..with the combination of honey and butter. I wish i could have bbq with them again. Heard we'll be having one bbq every semester. That's kinda cool..it'd be great. Me, darryl, jingyi, ali, atie, and syarikin..we left at 1045 and headed for lot 1 instead..to play pool. Haha. As a beginner, i think i've improved. I'm beginning to hit and aim, and kiss and slice and hop, etc. My trademark: Kiss of the dragon and Kiss of the rose. Haha. It's pretty lame, i know..but funny. Finished the whole thing at 1 plus in the morning. No night rider, we took the taxi. Reached home, went to the toilet, wash up and to the bed..sleep..zzzzz..

ATTENTION !!!

The name 6 Feet Under has officially been owned by another band. We cannot be called 6 Feet Under anymore.

Who am I closest to of all my friends? It'd definintely be my band, 6 FEET UNDER. Because when i'm with them, we can talk about anything, joke about anything, and be serious about anything. It is always with my band, whenever i vent my anger. Not really vent my anger on them, vent my anger by the way i play my role when jamming. So I hope this band will always remain.

Today was ultimately fun. Lessons end at 1230 for me so some of 4A students who are in pjc, we went to bpp to have our lunch at long john. But i didn't go there with them, i met them there cuz i had to redeem something at the singpost for my dad. When we're done eating, we talked and joked. Actually the moment i finished my last lesson, i asked jingyi whether she wanted to go to dael's house later that day. She was afraid that dael might think she self-invited herself so i told her not to worry cuz darryl wouldn't mind. By the way, jingyi is always with the band. She's always been with us when we jamm. I regarded her as a sister of the band. Haha. She's in the loyalty list FYI. She wanted to meet up before making our way to dael's place. So we met up. Arrived at dael's house, wah, it was really fun. Played some songs, watch videos, relax, etc. Jingyi wished to learn the typical instruments that are used in a band such as guitar and drums. She's really a cool girl, in a sense, she's very sporty and always ready to learn new things, and daring things too. I asked dael to teach her instead but we kept pin-pointing each other. Eventually, both of us taught her some basics. I pretended like a teacher, haha. Dael was in charge of the admin stuffs. Jingyi is a fast learner. I believe she'll be able to master the basics in no time. At around 7, we made our away, with dael, to bpp to have our dinner at MAC. We talked about recent stuff. Dael had to go to his badminton training, jingyi home and me home too. So we went separate ways.

Well, i have a classmate whose name is Eunice Lacaste. You can see that she's a philippino from her name. She's really a nice person to talk to. But i'm starting to feel that i'm really gonna miss everyone in 4A, and also my west spring schoolmates whom i'm close with. We all have different aims, dreams and ambitions. We talked about hot topics like political, etc. She told me her dream and i told her mine. I told her that it's almost impossible to pursue my dream and she advised me not to be afraid of pursuing my dream. How hard it may be, nobody can stop me from reaching my destination. I gotta try my very best. And you know what, that really affected me. This goes to everyone. Do your very best if you wanna achieve your dreams. I feel so sad having to go separate ways. I hope one day, we might be able to meet again. Let's cherish friendship till the end of time.

I really have nothing to post about thus, i decided to post about lady celebrities whom i admire. Let's magnify on singers. She won the American Idol title the season before the previous. Her name is Carrie Underwood. Woohoo!! Haha. I admire her because she's quite beautiful and hot. Everyone would definitely like her. When you see her picture below, i think you will know why.

This is only one of her thousand pictures. Haha..

Let's look at my favourite hollywood celebrity. Those who know me well should know. I'm a crazy fan of Jessica Alba. She's hot don't you agree? She's really really hot. I would like to watch the fantastic four but always forgot about it. Sigh. It's ok. Besides that, she's cute too. Her sweet smile and that will melt every living man. Well, here's her picture.

Well, I think I should end my post here. I'm outta here.

Do I still love her? Do I still have feelings for her? After i've been away from her for almost a year and a half. I have always wanted to sms her but i just can't. We're nothing to each other now. But still feel that she's still a part of me. Whenever i receive her message, i feel that we're still together. The laughter and happiness and agony we shared in the message. Should I convey this message to her? Should I tell her my feelings? But something's holding me back. Something's just not right. What should I do?

Risen Vengeance ? Risen Jeopardy ?

So will it be the Risen Vengeance or Risen Jeopardy? I think that it is time for me to present a name for myself, for band purposes. It is time for me to get an identity. It's because in a band, i guess using our original names won't sound cool. We may not be an official band but why not just pretend as if we are? Haha. By pretending, it will somehow make us feel better when jamming. Spent time during the most and extremely boring orientation figuring and putting words together to make a name. A name that when people hear of it, flicker of fear that will send chills up their spine. Haha. Of course not. I just wanna make a name that sounds extravagant when people hear of it and, that they are eager to know who i really am. I came up with names like, Silent Agony, Fatal Attraction, Fallen Justice, etc. Well, time's up. It is time for me to excuse myself. Outta here.

It just feels like 3 months haven't pass by. The time we had to foster class bond is really inadequate. And now, we have to part(at least for some). It feels sad you know, some of my classmates said that they're going somewhere else. It was like they never really cherish the friendship. Yeah, i may sound emotional cuz that's true. Anyway, i've decided to upload some of the pictures we took together. =)