it's time i walk away..

I've always loved her..
A..L..W..A..Y..S
It's something
unpredictable..
But in the end it's right.
I hope you had
the time of your life.
The times i spent
with you were the
time of my life..
the happiest, the
most cheerful,
the saddest,
all jumble up into
one emotion:
HAPPINESS..hehe.
sometimes i ask myself
this question:
Why must our relationship
end up this way?
I could at least expect
a 'goodbye'..
but she left stranded
in matter of minutes,
or hours i think..
She should at least
explain to me that she
had to leave me..but
she didn't.
that really escalated
my frustration..
soon i realised that
it was useless getting
angry and dropped it.
But i can't forget you
so easily..I have no idea.
Getting to know you
is like meeting
the fairy of my dreams..
hmm..fairy? No way..
Maybe princess...
Whatever it is, i prayed
to God that this would
last for a very long time..
eternal....
But i was proven wrong.
With you gone and not
being by my side,
i'm stranded just like
a poor man stranded on
an island enclosed with
tall trees and dense
forests...ALONE..
I hope somebody really
rescue me from this island.
Everything that has a
beginning, has an end..
Of course i know that..
but i didn't predict it
would turn out and end
this way...
Anyway, this experience
really taught me a
lesson that is worthwhile.
..it's time i walk away from
you..your life..
this is the very one thing
i despise...but
what to do?..
just like the malay proverb,
" Nasi sudah menjadi bubur."

..Blk 276

Blk 276 is known
for its splendid peace.
I used to dread when
i come to this block
cuz it seems to be
isolated from the
rest in Bangkit..
I got it over with
in a matter of time.
It really sets my mind
at ease whenever i
sit alone at the void
deck around 9 plus
at night..
It IS dark, gives me
the goosebumps..
But if u just sit there
to relieve your stress,
to witness the cool air..
you will definitely forget
about ghosts momentarily.
I've learnt to appreciate
what this blk that i'm
living at have..
HOWEVER...
this place is not for
hanky-pankies..
I know this place
is apt for such things
at night as it's quiet
and there's nobody
else to disturb you.
But i resent it when
i see people kissing
and hugging at the void
deck..
They are trying to destroy
the positive factor
of this block.
Sigh..why can't they just
find some other place
except Bangkit?..

I still...

I Still - Backstreet Boys
I really admire this song.
especially its lyrics..
It resembles most of
the parts of my life.
Upon hearing this song,
it reminds me of u, iha..
I've tried my best..
but the bond between
me n u is just too extremely
strong..
I've been believing...
that after my O levels,
i might succeed..
What is it that makes u
do this to me?
I've realised my mistakes..
(Haiz...)

..my pathetic prelim grades

Here are the results
of my prelim...

English - C5
Malay - A2
Maths - B3
Physics - B3
Chemistry - B3
C.Humanities - C5
Geography - B3
D&T - B3

I know people would
think I'm insane
displaying my grades
when i'm not performing
very well..
Nevertheless, I have no fear
or shame in doing so because
i'll try my very best to
scrap that grades of my cert.

For subjects like maths,
physics and D&T,
I should have gotten
at least an 'A' grade
because i'm quite fond
of those subjects.
Ironically, it turned out
otherwise.
Of course i was vexed
and disappointed too..
With my current grades,
there is certainly nowhere
i can go for the 3-month course.

What i fear the most is
english and chemistry.
We may think english is
an easy subject as we
speak english almost
everyday..
But it is really difficult, man..
After attending some english
courses, I'm more confident
of myself.
Memorisation is required
for chemistry. You have
to memorize numerous
information, facts, etc.
I hope i'm able to get at
least 3/4 of the chemistry
syllabus on the tip of my
fingertips..