Arghh!!!!

I've been trying very
hard but it's so
impossible for me to
forget u, wajihah...
Those moments were
too happy for me
to forget...

i'm going on...

I would like to personally
thank my friend, Jacintha
for she's always there for
me in times of problems..
In fact, i already did..
She has enlightened me with
something that is difficult for
me to face..
She didn't really solve it
for me..she just reduce my
burden..i'm feeling quite ok
right now, resuming my
usual daily activities...
I'm going to put all my effort
in my studies...
I have to reset my mind and
instead of good, i'll set it to
'love is evil at this age..'
Hmm..that is a great idea,
it seems..
I can't get it over with in
a split second but i'll do
it slowly..
I'm back to my laughter...
Haha...

journey to be a pilot..

I've checked the RSAF site
few days ago..
I searched for every information
i wish to know..
I found the requirements
to be a pilot of the army..
One need to have a full
GCE 0 level and A level
certificate, and passes in
English, Maths and Physics..
I'm currently concentrating
on this 3 subjects..
I'm improving in maths,
my consistent grade is
A2 or A1 and of course
i'm aiming for A1..
My physics grade was good
initially but due to some
personal problems, i couldn't
cope and my grades dropped..
Now, i'm striving to 'up' my
grade to A1..
My dream means so much to me..
I can't sacrifice it for some
other unnecessary things..
I've set a goal..which is to put
everything aside and also,
after her birthday which is on
28th August, i'm never gonna use
the com until end of december..
i'll try my best..

Girls= Evil

Today, during english
lesson...our english
teacher, Mrs Ang,
asked our opinions
about this following
statement...
"Money is the root of
all evil.."
My friend came out with
something but he did
not tell the teacher about it
for he's afraid it might
offend the opposite gender..
Here it is:
Girls = money x time
Since time is money,
therefore:
Girls = money x money
= (money)^2
Since money is evil..
Hence, he concluded that:
Girls = Evil...
What is your opinion
about this??
Btw, no intention to
offend here...

...

I observed that she has been
running away...
I dunno why..but..
why run away or avoid someone
if that person isn't even
looking for you?
It doesn't make sense..
It's pretty hard to tell
my friends that our
relationship is nothing now.
cuz they will nvr believe me.
So if they see u, running away
the moment i'm within your range,
they'll laugh..
I'll be looking down on the floor
as i walk for i'm embarrassed.
Please, if u must, don't turn
yourself into a laughing stock..
I bear no grudge against u..when
i see u, and u see me,
i'm not, what u say it in malay,
"jeling"...
i'm just changing the direction
of where i'm looking...
cuz it makes me sad looking at u.
Have u ever cherished a relationship,
besides ur friendship?
And i know, a girl of 14yrs,
it's not really the time to
get into a relationship...
Also, you aren't matured enough..
though u look as though u are.
Hence, i'll treat this relationship
as puppy love..cuz one party
did not regard it seriously.
I hope one day, when you've
grown big, you'll understand
what is true love...whereby
no matter how bad times are,
both parties will still struggle
and strive to maintain and
keep the relationship going.
Btw, i really learned alot
from u...thanks alot ya??

a story of a cow...

In this story, the main character
is a cow...this story started since
2003 and it still continuing.
This cow has been walking along the
straight, narrow road..
There wasn't any ulterior
motive then.
As it walked, it suddenly saw
grassland...
It seemed to be so green that
they brightened up the cow's day.
The cow was also happy...
Then one day, the grass seemed
to taste different..
The cow was unhappy and left the
grass..
The grass kept growing but the
cow didn't realise.
It continued it's journey..
One day, the cow saw a
wheatfield which was quite greeny.
It began to eat the wheat...
The wheat grows, the cow eats..
Both were very happy.
It all happened so sudden..
and then in one swift...
the wheat refused to grow..
The cow waited and waited..
even wondering why the wheat
did not grow.
The day arrived when the wheat
proved that it didn't want
to grow for the cow to eat..
The cow was hurt, it was like
the samurai sword slashing
it's heart.
The cow now doesn't know what
to do..it's all alone..
It tried to confront the wheat
but the wheat did not even
say anything...
The cow felt remorsed for what
it has done to the grass..
It left the grass uneaten...let
rain pour on it instead of love..
In this never-ending journey,
the cow learns something...but
the cow did not even know what
it has learned...
It wishes to turn back but it's
too guilty for him....
He's sorry for what had
happened...